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[CLKD]

Morning - so far OK.  Yourself?

[Dorothy Gale]

Hi.

Not been able to read all this thread but read your post and just wanted to say thst was me 2 years ago.

Completely suicidal, in late perimenopause and not in a good placd at all.

I won't go into how bad it got but suffice to say I went on medication as it was do or die.

Citalopram saved my life. Literally. It wasn't an easy road to begin with but 2 and a bit years in and I'm a different woman all because of this drug.

I appreciate it won't work for everyone but there is hope and to hang in there.

Much love x

[CLKD]

tnx for the update Dorothy Gale 

[Lavender Girl]

Hi Dorothy,
Thank you for this, that is very hopeful.
The Sertraline side effects are hitting me hard, but I'm only on day 5, my anxiety is higher, but I was warned it'd get worse before it gets better so I'm hanging in there as I know it will be get better, well I hope it will!!

So happy to read your success story and that things are good.
Thank you for sharing
xx

Hi.

Not been able to read all this thread but read your post and just wanted to say thst was me 2 years ago.

Completely suicidal, in late perimenopause and not in a good placd at all.

I won't go into how bad it got but suffice to say I went on medication as it was do or die.

Citalopram saved my life. Literally. It wasn't an easy road to begin with but 2 and a bit years in and I'm a different woman all because of this drug.

I appreciate it won't work for everyone but there is hope and to hang in there.

Much love x

[Mariab]

How are you doing lavender girl?

[Lavender Girl]

Morning Maria,

Thank you for checking in.
Suffering the side effects to the Sertraline, but only on day 8 so I'm trying to push through it and hope it gets better.
The anxiety is mentally but also physically feeling quite brutal and debilitating right now. That crushing chest and waking with the sick in my stomach feeling, throat lump etc.
I was warned this could be the case for a few weeks so I'm holding on and just keep saying to myself it's just the meds.
What I have to be really careful about is not thinking about the emotional situation I've been going through as much, which is near on impossible but trying to keep it out my head while I feel this bad in case I start spiralling again.

Last week and the one before were the darkest I think I've had, it coincided with what would be PMT and my period coming, I have the coil, but was bleeding still, so i know it was the perfect storm.
If I can try and flatline some of physical symptoms then I can try to work through the heartbreak stuff.

I've forgotten how it feels to feel happy, and have lost myself right now.  Just hoping this isn't my new normal
How are you doing?
x

How are you doing lavender girl?

[Mariab]

I know exactly how you are feeling..I am still.in a blip with the same gut feeling, loss of appetite, morning anxiety etc....but had a good afternoon yesterday so hoping things are settling again...
It is awful carrying that feeling with you but it does stop...is this the first time on  ssri???...just take each day at a time.

[Lavender Girl]

It's awful, but determined to stick at it.  Yes first time.
How long have you been on yours? and which one again?
Yes all we can do isn't it, even minute by minute.  Trying to keep distracted as much as I can.
Hope things are settling down for you soon
x

I know exactly how you are feeling..I am still.in a blip with the same gut feeling, loss of appetite, morning anxiety etc....but had a good afternoon yesterday so hoping things are settling again...
It is awful carrying that feeling with you but it does stop...is this the first time on  ssri???...just take each day at a time.

[Mariab]

I'm.on citalopram, I tried sertraline but made me really nauseous so had to stop...
First time round in my experience works abit quicker than second  time but I'm sure that being perimenopause etc..makes things abit harder...
You will start to notice that you may have a few mins feeling OK without knowing  and then hours then days ..we all ahbe our set back and it takes no end of courage to get through it..so your doing really well 8 days is relatively early  but keep in your mind that what's on the otherwise is worth it.xx its ok to cry and fall apart and its ok to feel..let us know how you get on. 

[Lavender Girl]

Felt quite sick the first couple of days, that's settled a bit and again it's hard to distinguish between that and the anxious gut feeling I get ya know?... it's all just such a mess right now.

That was my other option but Doc said to try Sertraline first as the main one they used for anxiety in Peri so she tells me.

Thank you so much, that's good to know.  I just need the edge taken off so i can feel a bit calmer especially around my period time.
Still have the voice in my head daily that says 'I want to die' but it's not as loud atm, so we'll see.

Sending lots of love and thanks again xx

I'm.on citalopram, I tried sertraline but made me really nauseous so had to stop...
First time round in my experience works abit quicker than second  time but I'm sure that being perimenopause etc..makes things abit harder...
You will start to notice that you may have a few mins feeling OK without knowing  and then hours then days ..we all ahbe our set back and it takes no end of courage to get through it..so your doing really well 8 days is relatively early  but keep in your mind that what's on the otherwise is worth it.xx its ok to cry and fall apart and its ok to feel..let us know how you get on. 

[Losingtheplot]

Hi Lavendergir

Big hugs xxxx

Your post describes how I am feeling so I totally get it. I was like this 3 years ago and got thru it. Its taking longer this time.

How are you now?

Ive been on Ad's now for 7 weeks and increased sandrena gel for 8 weeks.

Things seem to be calming down for me at last. Morning surges and dread feeling only there slightly. I am starting to find my mind is not racing as much. Motivation slowly coming back. Still not quite there.

[Mishmash1982]

Hi Everyone
I hope you're well.

I'm peri at the moment, on 2 pumps gel and mirena, though I keep upping my gel does, but can't quite find the right balance.
My anxiety is very high, this is largely to do with a personal/relationship issue, but also feel like my hormones have amplified things.
This is going to sound weird but there's a voice in my head every day that says 'I want to die'.
I don't think I do actually want to die, I do want the pain and anxiety to stop though.

Has anyone else had this? I feel a bit mental and have felt like this for almost a year. I'd never take my own life (I hope).. have lost friends this way, but it's just a weird thought that comes in and then goes out again.
But it's literally daily.

Considering SSRI.. currently taking Buspirone, but now worried that's having an opposite affect.

Experiences welcome thank you xx

Feeling exactly the same atm, probably round 6 months but feel like its got worse aince the mirena, hope you get sorted

[Losingtheplot]

Hi Mishmash1982

Ahh big hugs, thats a long time to be feeling like you have.

Are you taking anything else? I have the contraceptive implant maybe try without the mirena as I don't suppose it suits everyone.

Its just awful isnt it and I hope Lavendergirl has found that Sertraline has helped her.

[Wania]

I am so sorry that you're going through this and I understand very well. It's not that you want to die, you just want the suffering to stop. If I am being honest I think you should try SSRI as a faster remedy and then reach for other "fixes". Perhaps consider self referral for mental health help?

I had a breakthrough through Nichole Sachs book "mind your body" and her podcast. Helped really a lot. Short meditations and affirmations help as well.
That being said, sometimes there is a reason why we are anxious, it doesn't necessarily need to be "all in your head" or cause of hormonal imbalance.

I just hope that you will manage to figure it out. And please if this feeling gets deeper just reach out to someone who can help xx

[Jules]

Felt quite sick the first couple of days, that's settled a bit and again it's hard to distinguish between that and the anxious gut feeling I get ya know?... it's all just such a mess right now.

That was my other option but Doc said to try Sertraline first as the main one they used for anxiety in Peri so she tells me.

Thank you so much, that's good to know.  I just need the edge taken off so i can feel a bit calmer especially around my period time.
Still have the voice in my head daily that says 'I want to die' but it's not as loud atm, so we'll see.

Sending lots of love and thanks again xx

I'm.on citalopram, I tried sertraline but made me really nauseous so had to stop...
First time round in my experience works abit quicker than second  time but I'm sure that being perimenopause etc..makes things abit harder...
You will start to notice that you may have a few mins feeling OK without knowing  and then hours then days ..we all ahbe our set back and it takes no end of courage to get through it..so your doing really well 8 days is relatively early  but keep in your mind that what's on the otherwise is worth it.xx its ok to cry and fall apart and its ok to feel..let us know how you get on. 

Hi, I know it's for a different purpose but my son has taken sertraline for quite some time for quite bad anxiety attacks. I know he didn't get relief straight away and they changed the dose but it really did rescue him. He's was on the verge of losing his job. That and some CBT sessions. He's done really well since then. Not cured but he is on top of it and can enjoy life. I hear a lot of negativity about drugs for mental health but I dread to think where he'd have been without them. Hopefully you will also start to feel improvement.