Morning ladies, I haven't looked at the forum for a little while then logged on this morning to find all this great info. This is really useful especially for those of us trying to avoid news bulletins and facebook both of which focus on the bad news. This forum is a safe place to come. I know there is a lot of bad news, I didnt have health anxiety before but I do now. I'm sure that's the same for alot of people.
I mainly want to vent about 3 things, hope that's ok. Firstly, how purposeless I feel - I feel lucky and guilty at the same time that I am not a front line worker, nor have I volunteered other than giving my number to a couple of elderly in my street. Ordinary people have become crucial to all our lives, putting themselves at risk while the rest of us stay at home. I find this in particular difficult to rationalise. I am so grateful to them.
Secondly, my anxiety is heightened as my husband (54) has a rare condition which primarily produces lung cysts. Hes had pleurectomy ops to remove but in my mind hes bound to be at higher risk. He has not been identified by letter so looks like same risk as anyone else. Related to this, we don't know if my 19yr old daughter has inherited this condition, she could get tested at 18 but was still thinking whether to or not when this virus erupted. When I hear the phrase 'no known health conditions' I realise that it could be you've got something you just dont know you have it. This is the reason I dont volunteer in case I bring something into the house. I'm also the one doing the shopping etc to reduce the risk to my family. I realise this is all in my head.
And thirdly I have read about the perceived (not proven) additional risk for people with blood group A in catching the virus more easily and being less able to recover from it. I am A-, as is my son, my daughter is A+. I've heard all sorts of Covid19 related discussions, particularly we listen to radio 5, (or I did), but nothing that has mentioned the Chinese study on blood types or anything similar. There must be lots of info that is withheld so as not to cause mass panic. Theres the anxiety.
These are terrible times for all of us, and
I'm finding that trying to maintain composure is becoming more and more difficult.
Thanks for allowing me to bleat on. Stay safe everyone x