I'm so sorry to hear this Spider. I don't want anyone to feel how I feel.
I'm on day 19, and although I have had anxiety before (lost a friend to suicide in 2020 - so I hear you) it's been nothing of this level. I feel like everything is amplified and heightened where before after a few days I could start to cope, every day at the moment I feel the same. It is of course linked with the end of a relationship and friendship that meant a lot to me, so I know that's a huge part of it, but I was hoping the HRT would help but seems to be making it worse for now.
Same as you.. I sometimes think oh ok my mind is off the situation and I'm ok.. but then that feeling rises from my stomach up to my chest, that crippling tightness and the lump in my throat and nothing brings me down from that. I just have to get to bed time.
The chest thing is awful I agree, and the breathing exercises etc that people tell you to do just don't touch it for me. I'm almost glad to be prescribed this drug as it feels like a comfort thing, and I know it's there if I need to use it if I have a really really bad day when I can't control anything.
I also cry at the drop of a hat.. and that was never me.
Have you talked to your doctor?
you're not alone either! xx
Hi Lavender Girl. I don't have much in the way of helpful, "take this" advice - but I'm currently in exactly the same mind space as you so wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I've just started HRT, literally 10 days ago, but I was bad before then so I'm not sure if the oestrogen spray has made it worse or not. I have the odd few minutes during the day where I think I feel a bit better, but most of the day I feel like my mind is going. The pain in my chest is the worst bit and it's affecting my breathing too.
I have had this before, many, many years ago when my best friend died, so the only thing I keep telling myself is, "this too shall pass".