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[Suzysheep]

Oh wow…. That’s a huge step Michelle!! Well done!
It’s crazy isn’t it how things we didn’t have to think about make us nervous now!
Just think how far you’ve come… a couple of weeks ago you would have probably cried and been overwhelmed… but you managed it with only mild panic!

My day has been better too… went out this morning with my husband and walked the dog… picked some blackberries… then this afternoon had a sea swim. The weather was gorgeous….
The mornings are still very hard and I always wake up and start feeling anxious….. and as I get tired in the evening I hit a bit of a wall and get a bit anxious… but I’m getting there… so it’s a win for Suzy too!!!

[Michelle7474]

Wooo well done Suzy a win for you too
I usually wake jittery to be honest and evening the past week I can feel it in the Background and usually around 5 I feel nauseous but passes .. I’ve noticed these things but much much much much better than a few weeks/months ago

The weather was lovely here today also

Let’s hope we have many more good days too come … can handle bad days when they ain’t every day
I can usually tell from morning how the day is going to be

Xxxx

[Suzysheep]

Another ok day so far.
The anxiety and jitteryness is still there, but it is not overwhelming me and is bearable.
Took the dog out a bit further on my own…. Didn’t feel like I had jelly for legs and didn’t feel like I needed to get home after 5 minutes.
Had a nice sea swim… refreshing, calming and cool… love it. I’m almost dreading the colder weather arriving as I won’t be able to go.

[Michelle7474]

Good to hear Suzy …
Same as me another good day although I’ve not done much but feel ok
Still lingers in back ground but not enough to keep me down ..

Hopefully this continues for us both
I hate the jelly legs .. but don’t always get them now .. but occasionally they pop to say hello ..

Been a nice day here again today .. not as warm as yesterday but still pleasant

Hope the rest of your day continues to be a good day Suzy

[Suzysheep]

Thanks Michelle

I’m glad you have had another good day. Hopefully we are starting to turn a corner…. But I’m not going to get too hopeful, I know it’s 2 steps forward one step back… but it feels so nice just to not be totally overwhelmed and in tears !
Xx

[Hopeful]

Hi Suzy & Michelle
I too am having a good day, hopefully we are all on the road to recovery.
Suzy, could you get a wetsuit for the winter, open water swimming is supposed to be so good for you, there are a couple of swimming lakes not too far from me but I haven’t tried it yet 

[Michelle7474]

Brilliant Hbhigg
Always good to read the good days ..
same Suzy one day at a time ..

Let’s hope it’s  a start of things to come , as I’ve said before dont ever mind the bad days if they aren’t every day ..
I would much prefer never to have a bad day but that’s pushing it I think haha

 
Hope you both have a good evening , I have nothing planned but food and relax and watch tv ..
Relax i do so much of that lol .. roll on the day I’m back 100% myself so I can not relax so much

Xx 

[Suzysheep]

So I spoke too soon….
We had a conservatory roof salesman visit for a quote….. he was here 1 1/2 hours giving his pitch… I was getting more and more anxious. When he left, my husband made a loud breathing noises ( which has become one of my noise sensitivity triggers) and I had such a scary physical response to it, the blood literally drained from my legs and I felt faint… I then cried for about 2 hours….. feeling dreadful again today.
I’m so upset all my progress has been totally undone….. and I’m petrified of having that extreme physical reaction to a sound. 

[Hopeful]

Hi Suzy
Don’t panic we can’t expect things to go completely smoothly I’m sure, just remember that you can feel better and you will get over this.

I feel a little more anxious this morning, but as you, I have things going on that I am worrying a little about.

The trouble is before all this started we would just shrug of a slightly anxious day without much thought but now it makes us panic that things will spiral again, I am sure they won’t.

[Michelle7474]

Any consolation ladies
Last night I had a big aniexty/panic and I can’t even tell you why ..
I was sitting doing nothing , well was actually ordering something online , then my chest felt tight .. so I think that’s where the panic set in & I was so close to phoning 111 as this was so strong
But I got on my bed and through tears relaxed and tried breathing it through
I was shaking .. divvering and then saying to my husband I don’t want to die
Was bloody awful
It passed like it normally does and im here and im fine but now im trying not to think about it ( which is the hard part )
I didn’t sleep great but I slept
I was thinking how that happen & why again
My husband said what you have to remember is it will pass .. & I know he is right but in those moments thats last thing I think of .. when panic sets in it sets in.
He said all your bloods are fine remember that ( his way of reassuring me I’m fine ) but in those moments I don’t even think i am fine .. bloody awful

I find all this really bizarre that I’ve never ever experienced this until this year and now it’s part of my life & will it ever go
Will I ever be fully me again

I expect bad days but when they come on like that it freaks me out a little LOT

I hope you ladies are ok
Suzy I’m sorry you have had a bad morning and I hope your day gets better
And Hbhigg I hope your anxious feelings pass also
Today I’m gonna try and crack on as best as I can ..

Hope you both have good days and this mornings feelings pass ladies xxx

[Suzysheep]

Hbhigg, I am trying to hold on to the thought that I can and will get better.  I feel so tearful today, I think it shocked me as it came out of nowhere… because up until then I felt quite‘ stable’ .

Michelle… I’m so sorry that happened to you. Must have been terrifying. I hope you can try and keep going today. It’s so scary that these things hit us like a hammer out of the blue.

It just goes to show …. We’ve got a long way to go!

I’ve been for a swim, taken the dog around the block….. all whilst feeling like im  not really me doing it… does anyone relate to that feeling… sort of like an anxious shaking robot on autopilot!

Might try and have a nap in the garden.. the weather is lovely.

[Michelle7474]

Suzy that’s good you have got out and carried on … and yes I always feel like I’m not me when it happens .. strange out of body but not out of body feeling

I got up shaky and jittery but i plodded on and did all housework , washing , ironing then had shower and now I’m gonna walk to the shop .. usually feeling like this I wouldn’t wanna do anything so all above is a bonus
I still feel jittery think it’s here for the day .., but I’m gonna carry on as best as I can
It was a shock to just come on like that but for me I think when my chest felt tight I panicked and obviously made myself worse but I can’t stop the panic kinda thing when it happens it happens

Hope your day gets better xxx

It’s a lovely day today make the most of it … we are lucky to have these days

[Michelle7474]

These sunny days that meant to say lol
I’ve been to and from local shop & now back in doors gonna do sit outside for a while and hope that today’s feelings pass as quick as they come ..

[Hopeful]

Yes I too get that out of body feeling where my head feels like it’s in a fog!

Have been busy preparing a ham for my husbands aunts funeral on monday( she had no children so as she lived close by us and my sister in law looked after her)
Also prepared shepherds pie and and chocolate courgette cake ( have to use them up so many have grown this year in the garden) for tomorrow when my son and his fiancé come down from Hull for the funeral, which is nice even though for a sad occasion. Off to chat to the curate about the service soon then out for dinner with other relatives.
So all in all being busy has helped.
Have a good day
Helen

[Michelle7474]

You have been busy Helen .. keeping busy is good sometimes
Sorry about your aunty
I have my dad funeral a week on Tuesday I hope I’m ok for it.. I will most definitely show my face .. he lived in Ipswich so we will go evening before sad occasion
It’s good your aunt had people around her.
Enjoy the rest of your day xxx