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[Michelle7474]

Oh wow Hbhigg we could be neighbours lol

I’m sorry you have been suffering with aniexty.. it’s worse thing for me so far on this journey

I’m glad the hrt is starting to help , I will consider it again in the future but for now I will try and see how far I can go without it. I’m in peri early into it aswell
I still been having periods and was always regular then became closer and all other symptoms lead me to HRT
But I think my body wasn’t ready for it as everything seem to get worse daily
I’ve been off patches 7 weeks now and I do feel better in myself and soon I hope to be how I was before patches which in fairness wasn’t as bad as I’ve been the past few months.. the withdrawal from patches as been horrendous

Why did you stop HRT first time around ?
I hope you continue to have better days and I hope you have the regime you need

I can’t wait to do my normal every day things like I used too and I know small steps are better than where I was a few weeks/ month ago .. so I take that as a win
Do you take anything for your aniexty ??

Xxx

[Hopeful]

Hi Michelle
Sorry for this long post

When I was In peri I only had very heavy periods and migraines that I managed to live with but post menopause I got v bad hot flushes night sweats, which we’re getting worse but I hadn’t started HRT.
Then 2 years post menopause I had a tick bite and Lyme disease rash and took antibiotics had no other symptoms felt fine.
but 2 months later it sets of terrible health anxiety with heart palpitations, had some emergency diazepam as having nil sleep nights tried Citrilopram but made everything 100 times worse only managed 3 days.
Heart checked out ok and started HRT which seemed to stop anxiety.

2 years on I had some breast tenderness and so cut my patches in half which worked well then last year during lockdown I thought I would try stopping and felt great for 3 months then health anxiety and heart symptoms started again,worst ever, had some diazepam then tried Sertraline but could do more than 3 days because I couldn’t sleep at all and anxiety hit an all time high.
Had to wait for heart all-clear before I could restart HRT and the same week I did I got another tick bite.
This is where it gets complicated!

4 weeks into HRT I had a couple of days of much worse fatigue and as this is also a symptom of tick Lyme disease I started a 21 day course of antibiotics. After that I still wasn’t sleeping and felt v tired also muscle aches so more antibiotics,now coming to the end of 2nd lot.

My problem now is is my anxiety menopause related or Chronic Lyme disease from my original bite, both things have anxiety, muscle & heart symptoms.

Have to see what happens when the antibiotics are finished. Also down to half a patch again as I wondered if they were giving me muscle ache which have gone.

Awaiting blood tests but shortages mean they are on hold

[Michelle7474]

Oh wow .. you have been through it.
It’s madness how a bite can do this ..I hope this lot of antibiotics help you I can imagine you wanting to know your self what’s what ..hopefully you get to do bloods soon and know answers .. how you feeling in yourself ??
my CBT therapist said to me that sometimes the aniexty can be sitting there just waiting to appear .. think that because you said 2 months later it started

Mine could be from Covid ( I had end of January) Vaccines I had end March and beginning June .. or hormones
But pin pointing which was the cause was and still is hard
I thought & think hormones 
Before I started HRT I had one episode of aniexty .. this was 3 weeks after vaccine & but happen to have a period day after .. then another period 10 days later  .. that’s why I started HRT as I used to get hot not so much flush but stay hot .. palpitations daily , and aches and pains in all different places ..
after starting HRT first week felt great…
Then started noticing little things .. after 2nd vaccine in June .. 12 days later my symptoms got worse ( was on hrt ) & I happen to get a period same time .. my symptoms that was worse was I was getting burning pain in ribs, aniexty  was  through the roof daily .. jittery ness . Nervous , palpitations , shaking and feeling of head rush constant dizziness  and just seemed like worse than before
And this continued and didn’t get a break from it , so I took patch off 27th july can remember that day like yesturday lol because I couldn’t handle it no more .. but after taking off patch things got worse as in the aniexty went to a level I have never known .. I took proponol but it wasn’t for me , as much as it stopped the shakes I couldn’t handle the feeling of the tablet and also the lack of sleep since I had taken the tablet.
I had been told it could take 3-6 months to come out system and I had only actually used HRT for 3.5 months
The coming off the patch symptoms was by far worse for me than on the patch but I knew I had to do somthing as you know yourself sometimes these things get overwhelming

I’m 7 weeks off now & past 2 weeks the aniexty as not been so bad as in bad I mean not so intense .. so I’m hoping that means my own hormones are levelling.
I have a period and the aniexty didn’t get high like it had previously .. but was aware it was there. I got that bad in the midst of all this that I stopped going out .. so now small steps is what I do

But reading on here people saying the vaccine actually set of symptoms for them .. so I’m wondering could I have had a mixture of both … who knows lol
It’s bloody awful I know that much .. did you have vaccines ??
I wish I was like you in peri just a few symptoms .. although any symptoms are bad .: you did well to go so long without help .. I just jumped straight in and I actually sit and think maybe I didn’t quite need it and I’ve overloaded myself with hormones and caused the aniexty

It’s so mad how it can come on like that for so many different reasons and we will never know.
I looked up what Lyme disease rash looked like as I wouldn’t have a clue .. looks painful … is it painful ?
What do you think in your mind that’s causing it ??
I hope you get answers soon.. these blood sample bottle shortages are bizzare

I have my blood taken quite regular as I’m on warfrain .. next week I’m going back to the finger prick .. which in hindsight is better as I can get results same day .. where if I do via vein at Kingston I get results few days later ( unless it’s bad then they phone ) so Me going back to finger prick saves a extra bottle for someone who needs it.
Only thing different is times  I can walk in and out within 5 min on a vein blood test lol

Do you still get palpitations etc ?
I still get them but not so intense as it past couple months .. I’m hoping is a good sign ..

Xxx

[Hopeful]

Well I think it’s hormones (at least I hope it is)
The rash doesn’t hurt at all and this time I had no rash.
I did have the vaccines but didn’t seem to have any side effects.
Only work 2 days a week and mainly on my own so that has made it easier, haven’t stopped getting out and about, still go running with friends and to Yoga.
My children are grown up although one still at home so all in I don’t have a stressful life which makes this so frustrating.
My husband has been wonderfully supportive. I really feel I am in a better place over this last month, some days no anxiety at all but  most days it is there but at a lower level than before, also sleep has improved a lot to about 5 even 6 hours.
Fingers crossed for all of us suffering that  we will soon be happy again

[Michelle7474]

Ohhh so deffo could be hormones.
Im glad you don’t have rash and pain .. it looked painful what I looked up.

My aniexty as lessoned in past few weeks also .. although same as you I know it’s there but not as intense as it was when it over took my life
I started getting to do things each day and make myself go out.

My son is 28 and lives in Wolverhampton so I always try and get to him whenever possible and also he visits us

I used to work in a kitchen, I loved job and also hours then this struck at first I was ok and carried on then after 2nd jab even tho I had no symptoms from the actual 2nd jab but 12 days later I had another big aniexty and that’s when I was signed off work as it’s not good working in a kitchen environment when I was in that state .. especially when I’ve gone from the joker of the place to a nervous wreck

I’m hoping to get Bck to me as soon as possible.. I would say it was towards end of July that it was at its worst but was happening most days since June but where I would still venture out .. towards end of  July I would only go out if I was with husband in car .. & then end of august was when I ventured out alone .. those weeks in July & august was the worst for me as in the aniexty was sky high which could have been also because I took off patch so withdrawing from them

I go out each day now & soon I hope I’m Bck at work doing the jokes again
I wanna go into town just because before I would always do it .. I wanna pick up my Christmas cards hahaha

Madness how it can effect us all very different .. but I’m glad that you manage to still do your things and not let it beat you .. it beat me but I’m now taking that control back
I’m glad you been getting better sleeps
I drop off easily now where before I didn’t but it’s staying asleep that I have problems with lol .. but I always say soon enough I will have a great sleep

It’s always good to have a good husband .. mine listens when I’ve banged on .. he as also felt it when he as seen me how I’ve been , said he couldn’t help which frrustated him and said broke his heart that all these years he can always help and this was out of his control
But he sees an improvement and said one thing aniexty didn’t take was my sarcastic mouth 🤣🤣
He don’t understand it all , I’m like how can you neither do I and I’m experiencing it .. but he always said whatever happens we do it together and that and listening for me was enough ..
I used to say what if I’m like this forever .. but I’m positive thinking now and I know it won’t be forever  because I won’t allow it to be xx

[Suzysheep]

Hbhigg, limes disease can have really long lasting affects if not treated, but as you have managed to spot it and have the anti biotics hopefully you will be ok..
Hormones have a lot to answer for. I really had no idea hormones could have such an effect on my mental health. I was fine before HRT… then within a week of stopping I was plunged into the worst anxiety ever.  I’m on week 5 I think of stopping HRT and week 4 of citalopram ( ish) .. the citalopram has been really hard to adjust to… but I was in such a state anyway I couldn’t tell if it was hormonal or medication… but I’ve stuck it out so I can get some relief. I won’t be using HRT again… I think I’m just not suited to it.

[Michelle7474]

Suzy how’s your day been ??

[Suzysheep]

Michelle,

Your husband sounds so supportive and lovely.
It was a miserable summer for you wasn’t it.
Sigh….. anxiety is such a life altering affliction to have …. I say to my husband what if I’m stuck like this forever too….. it’s scary! X

[Suzysheep]

My day has been much better. I’ve eaten all of my dinner too!

How about you? X

[Michelle7474]

That’s great news Suzy ..
my appitite was one of the first things I noticed got better

My day as been good have eaten way too much but that’s because of all the time i wasn’t eating lol 😂
I lost weight ( in all fairness I needed too ) but I like to try and lose it not it just come off
I can feel my belly filling out lol
I’m loving my food now and long May it continue

Xxx

[Suzysheep]

I’ve lost all the weight I had put on … I had put about a stone on just in the short time I was on HRT…. But I’d much rather be happy with more weight, than skinny and a wreck!!lol

I’m glad you’ve got your appetite back . It’s so nice to enjoy food!!

[Michelle7474]

I went from 12.4 ( I had eaten loads since lockdown lol ) and went down to 10.9 from losing appetite

Although I’m eating I’m only 10.10 so that’s all good and like you say Suzy I would rather be chunky and happy than skinny and a nervous wreck..
I said I’ll never worry about my weight again .. ( I will lol )
I was always between 9.13 and 10.7 so going into 12s was like yeah I’ll diet next week stuffing my face 😂😂

[Michelle7474]

How you doing Suzy … hope you have had a good morning and afternoon

I got up felt jittery but passed so I went for a walk to mother in laws and back .. quick visit
Then I had lunch and knew husband was working local
So thought I would surprise him with a cold drink and some lunch
So I started walking there , got stopped on way by 3 people ( mates ) I felt a tad nervous as I just wanted to carry on kinda thing .. but I spoke to them briefly and carried on walking then went up the wrong street and panicked myself hahahahaha not bad , but was thinking omg .. 😂😂 my heart was pumping my chest felt tight but didn’t make me panick like I have before .. but could feel it
I phoned husband to find out name of street & he wasn’t at the job anyways lol
As he had gone for materials & was on his way back
He picked me up from where I was ( one street out lol ) and took me his job .. I stayed with him around 20 mins and he was like would you like a lift home , I’m like no I will walk … and I walked back
So today Michelle won

Now I’m back home and enjoying the bit of sun we have ( I’m sat outside on patio ) laughing at myself for panicking..
that’s the furthest I’ve gone alone & for me that’s a good thing .. I was joking saying I’ll be in Sainsbury’s next .. which is further lol and I used to walk here each day before all this happened
I will get there I know I will and I’ll do a selfie and send it him and everyone hahaha ..

Hope you have had a great day Suzy

Xx

[Hopeful]

Wow Michelle
Well done, you have really smashed it today. So pleased for you.
I am also better today, been to work and off for a run with friends later.

[Michelle7474]

I’m so happy you had a good day Hbhigg
It’s always nice to have good days

I felt good for doing it .. even in the panic lol I’m still outside enjoying this last bit of nice weather as seems to-change tomorrow

It’s mad how something so simple today I feel great for .. when just a few months ago this would be a daily thing .. I only hope things start to get better each day for us all
Enjoy your run Hbhigg
I used to run on treadmill Years ago and loved it then I got lazy and stopped doing it ..
Xxxx