Oh racjen, I'm so desperately sad to hear that for yourself but also the family & I have to say so glad it was unsuccessful (I'm not sure that's maybe what you want to hear now as everything will be so raw). Unfortunately as I'm sure you know the NHS is extremely poorly equipped in relation to mental health support, good at initial life saving but the after care, poor. I hope the crisis team are supportiive and you get the long term support needed and whatever decision is made re staying with your mum or not that it is right for you. Give yourself some affection and time out & talk, don't keep in all inside, remeber there are people who care about you & are willing to listen, you just have to be honest. x