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CLKD

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #15 on: August 10, 2025, 11:41:53 AM »

LG - we are not here to fix others.  We R not responsible for how others react to what we do/not, say/not.  R U safe?

I'm a 'rescuer'  ::) as well as being reactive and compulsive.  Hard to live with  :-\

Sometimes we over think the why's/where4s. 

CBT is supposedly to teach the client how to rethink the thought processes.  This should then avoid the knock on anxiety effect.  It needs practice so that we can initiate it immediately any negative thoughts begin. However.

It mayB worthwhile you considering relationship counselling to get a handle on how a professional might help U 2 move forwards. 

As a rescuer in recent years I've offered up advice based on my experiences, if people don't take it that's fine.  I do however then put foot down with firm hand: U R a big Girl/Boy now and I've pointed U to X, Y, Z so U can take those routes if appropriate.

I've had the 'you don't care if you won't listen' scenario too.  Again, a gentle 'pointed U 2 ........ ' at which point Mum said OH I can't do that Dear. Eventually we learned that it was 'won't do'!



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MadameOvary

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #16 on: August 10, 2025, 10:13:14 PM »

I felt like this before HRT and also when I was using gel. I'm OK on patches though. It might be worth trying a different form of estrogen.
Good luck. It's a horrible feeling.
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Lavender Girl

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #17 on: August 12, 2025, 06:06:00 AM »

Thank you
I am safe

Oh I am the queen of overthinking for sure, and I am having counselling it's just being overwhelmed by the physical anxiety right now, and one leads to the other etc - a vicious cycle.

I'm great at advice for everyone except me.
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Lavender Girl

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #18 on: August 12, 2025, 06:06:43 AM »

Thank you, I will definitely consider this x

I felt like this before HRT and also when I was using gel. I'm OK on patches though. It might be worth trying a different form of estrogen.
Good luck. It's a horrible feeling.
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CLKD

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #19 on: August 12, 2025, 08:24:07 AM »

My husband often shouts when I'm on the 'phone, 'pity that you don't take your own advice'.

4 me it's totally physical and the "I can't take any more" soon creeps in.  :'(
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Lavender Girl

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #20 on: August 12, 2025, 09:43:12 AM »

100% this.

Just had a teary call with the Doc, I'm lucky they're so lovely and understanding.
She wants to start me on Sertraline, 50mg once a day and to keep to my two pumps a day of gel.
Review in a month to see if I tolerate it etc.

Nervous to take anything I don't want to depend on it, but she said I will still have good days and not so good days and it will just mean I can cope better on the not so good days, so hoping that will be the case.  She also said things you'd previously be able to handle better you just can't in peri, it affects the mood so much etc.  All things I have learnt, but when the Doc says it again it just re iterates this is normal etc and they are there to help.  Also NHS talking therapy, but said there's a long waiting list.  I have private therapy but it's so ££££

Also have CBD oil, but not sure that'll touch the sides really.  Today is a bad day and I know that's because I'm pre menstrual and everything is awful in this week.

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #21 on: August 12, 2025, 10:46:50 AM »

What don't you want 'to depend on' exactly?  If U were taking heart medication or insulin? 

Without my regime I would't be here.  What do you call expensive in the way of private therapy?  Consider it a way of dealing and healing?
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ClimbingRose

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #22 on: August 12, 2025, 03:56:51 PM »

Thank you for posting this. I feel like that too.

I'm not on any medication. I can't face the struggle (usually unsuccessful) to get a GP appointment.

I just struggle on and hope it will end one day. I'm grateful for the odd times when I feel normal.
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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #23 on: August 12, 2025, 06:42:57 PM »

I have just written an essay for you guys and it didn't go through  ::)..
Lavender girl...you are doing your best keep going...let us know how you get on
CLKD...you are a lovely person and full.of great advice  ;)
Climbing rose...the thought of.meds are very very daunting so.i I understand your worry..they did help me as CLKD says it saved her life and same here...but its not for everyone youust do what you are comfortable with
 ;) ;)
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Lavender Girl

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #24 on: August 12, 2025, 08:34:57 PM »

Hi,
I'm so sorry you do, it's just awful isn't it?
Today was pretty horrific.
Already collected Sertraline and I'll start tomorrow.  Hoping it can help manage the anxiety a little.

Is it worth just trying to get an appointment? even if it's telephone?

No one should have to just struggle on..  :(


Thank you for posting this. I feel like that too.

I'm not on any medication. I can't face the struggle (usually unsuccessful) to get a GP appointment.

I just struggle on and hope it will end one day. I'm grateful for the odd times when I feel normal.
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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #25 on: August 12, 2025, 08:43:44 PM »

What patients aren't being told is a) GPs have to offer appts and b) most surgeries have a triage on-line form to fill in.

When depression broadsided me at the end of April I was advised to fill in the form, the Nurse called me within 2 hours and I saw our GP face2face the next afternoon.

Anxiety is my main problem, the physicality floors me  :'(
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Lavender Girl

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #26 on: August 12, 2025, 08:44:40 PM »

I will, thank you.
Starting tomorrow xx




I have just written an essay for you guys and it didn't go through  ::)..
Lavender girl...you are doing your best keep going...let us know how you get on
CLKD...you are a lovely person and full.of great advice  ;)
Climbing rose...the thought of.meds are very very daunting so.i I understand your worry..they did help me as CLKD says it saved her life and same here...but its not for everyone youust do what you are comfortable with
 ;) ;)
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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #27 on: August 12, 2025, 08:47:48 PM »

Tnx Mariab - been there etc.. 

I had a wobbly yesterday as we are due on holiday next week.  OK thus far today  ::)
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ClimbingRose

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #28 on: August 15, 2025, 07:35:26 AM »

Thank you Lavender Girl and MariaB for your kind thoughts xx
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Lavender Girl

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Re: Not Suicidal but Suicidal Thoughts
« Reply #29 on: August 16, 2025, 08:30:40 PM »

How are you doing?
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Thank you Lavender Girl and MariaB for your kind thoughts xx
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