Thank you for replying LClegg.
I'm sorry it's proving so so hard for you to find balance and feel better. But it's good you're seeing some improvement.
Honestly, I've no idea what to think on my situation. I am not normal. I spent years chasing the estrogen dominance brigade because every time I felt so ill my E was always normal or high. It's only in the last year it's made a decline, at times. But I guess it's taking it all out in cm and now reducing it substantially with 2x cerazette that I can say with certainty, i get the same debilitating, poison and flu whichever.
I don't believe my symptoms are linked to hormonal levels. The cm proved that. But I'm still trying to gauge if they are hormones and therefore my body is overreacting in an immune/nervous system way to any fluctuations/changes.
So when I was in cm, on no HRT, my genuine no E symptoms were excruciating joint pain in my knees, groin and wrists and immense intense hot flushes.
I am worried that I've taken my E pretty low. But I'll just keep my eye on that. I'm not ready to add in E. I haven't accessed it yet

plus, as I think my body reacts to changes - I need stability, not yet more change. But this month holds the key.
Right now I feel very ill. Like my immune system is in overdrive. I'm fluey still. I've also got start up affects from cerazette - narky mood swings, anxiety. Spent years on cerazette, so I know them well.
Not sure how this is going to pan out.
1) all eyes on if I get debilitating low E symptoms
2) do my 'reactive' ill feelings calm once I'm stable?
If not. I'm going to retry a conventional combined pill as it did work for me to some extent a few years ago.
Nothing is perfect. I accept that now. But I can't accept feeling so ill that I'd rather be dead. I just can't.
Xx