Hi Penguin,
Just wanted to send some love your way.
From my own experience, peri made me develops the worse anxiety I have ever had, made me feel a bit out of control. I have worked hard with myself, accepting that I can't be the person I used to be, that the additional anxiety was hormonal related and for me, I had to try to accept it. It's like other peri stuff that I needed to find a way to work best with the symptoms. But the low level anxiety you speak of, yes, it remains, just a bit less unstable if you like.
In some ways I altered my life a bit ( lucky to be in a family situation where I can do so), accept that I can mostly only concentrate on one ' big' task at a time, because trying to multi task freaked me out and the anxiety spiralled. I upped my hrt patches to 125, luckily this dose doesn't give me side affects and have a low dose AD. Maybe explain to to our Dr and see if a different form of hrt may benefit? Or a change in AD?
Also have now begun some counselling as well, to help me work with some massive life changes. I too lost my mum, early this year.
Maybe you may be able to understand and accept you are living with some huge changes,physically and emotionally. Be kind to yourself. None of this as a 'fault' or weakness with yourself. I sometimes look at what is happening in my life and wonder how I am even still standing. It may not feel like it sometimes, but you're bloody amazing. X