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[Suzysheep]

Sorry you didn’t feel up to cbt. Hopefully you will tomorrow.

I ended up going back to bed for a couple of hours… I just couldn’t calm myself down. I managed to sleep….. but I still feel anxious.. but not as manic!!

I really don’t know why mines got so much worse since Friday?

Hope your feeling better as the day goes on xx

[Michelle7474]

Hi Suzy
I got up did what I had to do , went for a small walk to mother in laws ( same street but other end )
Then my husband took me to get my hair cut .. was shaky but my hairdresser is a mate so she is aware of what’s happening
She would always do my hair at home
.. but I don’t wanna be a hermit so I will when possible go to her still

I feel jittery still and gonna go home in a while and have some lunch  and then go from there

I hope your day gets better and I hope all this passes for us both soon as I’ve had enough now  seriously Wanna just feel like me again .. is it gonna happen … if so when that’s what I keep asking myself

Suzy I really and truly hope your days get better .. I hate to feel like people are struggling like me Xx

[Suzysheep]

Thanks Michelle… yes, it’s awful to think someone else is feeling this bad.  There’s thousands of people out there suffering from all sorts of crippling mental health problems… I have 2 members of my family ( brother in law and my sister in laws brother) who both took their lives. What must they have been feeling like to go through with it…. Truly awful and heartbreaking.

To top things off…. I’ve had an email from school saying my son has been in close contact with a positive covid case… so I’ve ordered the tests in…. And I expect him to be very anxious when he gets home ( he’s been double jabbed though)

I’m glad you’ve been out and about today… I bet it was good to get your haircut… bit of pampering… well done for getting yourself out!  Xx

[Michelle7474]

Sorry to hear about your family members but it does make you think , what must they have been feeling .. as this for me and I don’t know if it’s same for you but this unbelievably the worse thing I’ve experienced and I’ve been through some shit in my 47 years .. but nothing as topped this

Ohhhh I hope your son doesn’t get the virus .. im glad he as been double jabbed but hopefully he don’t get the virus and hopefully he won’t be too anxious
Good you have ordered tests , I always do them randomly because I’ve had it in the past I don’t want it again .. so when I go out even tho I’m cautious I always test few days after .. especially if I get a sore throat/headache etc

I’m happy to have my hair done and feels better , I was meant to have a colour but how jittery I was , I’m like no just do the cut as I wouldn’t of been able to sit there that long ( well maybe I could but my brain was telling me no ) .. because she is a friend it’s not so bad in her salon as she is aware
where if I was to go any where else it would feel worse I think
I really need my eyebrows threaded but that’s not happening for now .. so I’ll continue with my slugs ( eyebrows ) as they are lol

Suzy I hope you start feeling better as day goes on and also weeks go on.
And I hope covid don’t enter your household
Xxx

[Hopeful]

Hi ladies
Sorry you are both feeling anxious still, I am much better at the moment, but remember mine start almost exactly a year ago so I am glad to get some good days.
Well done Michelle fir getting to the hairdressers.
The funeral went well yesterday and I did a reading.
Son has gone back home now. I do still feel worried that this is just a few good days and it will be back to full blown anxiety again soon but I must try and be positive.
Sleeping is much improved but still only about 5 hours but they seem quite restorative.
Sending positive thoughts to you both
Helen

[Michelle7474]

So glad you feel better Helen
And I hope it’s here to stay n continue good days ..
I’m glad yesterday went well & wow well go you for doing a reading

Enjoy the good times & try not to think it’s only for a couple of days .. think of it as forever

So happy you having better days .. a year of this pleaseeeeeeeeeee don’t lol
Take care Helen and you enjoy every minute of feeling good .. you deserve good days after putting up with it so long xxxxx

[Suzysheep]

I’m glad things went well at the funeral Helen… and well done for doing a reading. It takes a lot of courage to do that. I did it at my dads funeral…. I was shaking like a leaf!  You have come a long way by the sounds of it.

I hope your good mood continues….

Xxx

[Michelle7474]

How you feeling Suzy ?? Hope your day as got better xxx

[Suzysheep]

I’m feeling calmer…. But still have waves of anxiety coming over me.

How are you feeling now Michelle?

[Michelle7474]

I’m glad your calmer Suzy & I hope that the aniexty fades away
How was your son ? Hope he is ok
I’m ok just relaxing and browsing internet for Christmas presents .. when I’m bored I spend money lol

Xx

[gm_thomson]

Hi there, thought i would check in on you guys. Sounds like you both had a better day today although by the time you see this you probably both will be in bed. I have had a few mostly good days, somehow (and I am not sure how) I have managed to get through the anxious evening spells within a few hours. And am good all day. It really is to do with how busy my brain is. I have Abba in my head now “if it wasnt for the nights” sigh. Anyway I am feeling jittery (you explained it well Michelle I realized thats how I am feeling) and have that pit of the stomach anxiety and a touch of dizziness which I am struggling with tonight so thought I would touch base on here to see if venting calms me down.

Part of it I think is anxiety because yesterday I had my bloodwork and ultrasound so now am worried about results (I have health anxiety triggered or got worse with menopause) and because tomorrow I get fitted for a holter monitor which is worrying me too (fear of the unknown?). 

Has CBT helped Michelle? I am starting to wonder if I need therapy for this…

[Michelle7474]

Hi Gm
Good to know you have had a few good days , I hope you get many more
I don’t know what starts my aniexty it’s appears when it feels like it
But we have to ride it through
I hope your results are all good and you can start to relax after recieving them
I’ve been waiting for ECG monitor since June and still nothing because of the back log of covid

CBT is interesting , I’ve only had a couple sessions but in a full on panic I’m not sure if I would beable to remember most stuff if I’m honest as you know panic and aniexty take over .. but it’s interesting to know how our mind works & how it can keep a picture or somthing there that actually can set off panic etc

Suzy how are you today , hope your well and having a better morning.

Today is another jittery and anxious morning for me , I didn’t sleep well as burning in ribs through the night so that could be why it’s seems stronger this morning & it must be something I’ve eaten as it’s not been too bad for a while ) so now have to look at what I’ve eaten differently and see what’s what or at least try and work it out

I have CBT at 12 .. was gonna reschedule but I might as well just do it as might help me feel less anxious

Let us know how you get on GM & I hope your days are better

[Suzysheep]

Hi Michelle,
I’m really anxious today, but I’ve tried to push on through. Took the dog out for a walk, then went and met my friend for a swim. I think I stayed in the water a bit too long though as I took ages and a looooong hot shower to warm  up.
Just in bed listening to my meditation now.
My son is ok… the tests have arrived so we will all be testing later, but no symptoms, so fingers crossed we’re all ok.
I hope the cbt helps. I’ve got one next week.

Gm… I’m glad to hear you are having better days.  I hope venting on here helped last night….. such a shame we’re all in bed… but keep posting, we’re listening to you xxxx

Helen, how are you after your busy few days?

Xx

[Hopeful]

Hi Suzy
Sorry you are still so anxious, I am sure it will pass before to long,
I am pretty good still but seem to be very tired and a little anxious. Went for run this morning then my sister came to see me,she has just gone home. Should do some housework now  . Have Pilates later and tomorrow is a work day.

[Michelle7474]

Hi Suzy and Helen

Suzy I hope your meditation helps you and hopefully you feel less anxious
I’m glad you pushed yourself forward .. I shoulda done that today but I couldn’t be bothered ( I know not attitude to have ) but after Hardly any sleep and this feeling all day it’s like today I feel sad with it aswell .. but I’m ok and I will pick me up by early evening.. think a good sleep would do me the world of good.

CBT went fine . I spoke to him about my week etc and told him I can’t pin point what is causing it apart from the physical feelings soon as I get a physical feeling it’s like it sets everything off and waking up jittery and nervous , seems to set the tone of the day kinda thing , so next week we gonna do a different approach and work on hormones instead of other things.. he said the word for it but I can’t remember it  .. so we will see ( hopefully a miracle will happen )
The CBT is very interesting, I’m doing it private and this bloke listens to me and we try work what’s what .. it’s about me and not his work if that makes sense
So even if at end of it if I’m still same it was worth the money for him to actually listen & go with me on my feelings , why telling me a few techniques along the way he is so easy to talk to & gets in deep to what I’m thinking and why , so for me is worth it & hopefully next week we can work something out on the physical side as I do believe it’s hormonal

I hope yours helps you I do find it fascinating and things make sense


I’m so glad no symptoms are in your home that’s brilliant news and I hope it stays like that.

Helen I hope your good days continue and you become less anxious
You two make me feel lazy .. with all your swimming and running and me over here done nothing lol
Apart from housework & that’s it

What do you listen to Suzy .. ? I had a relaxation one from the CBT therapist and I listen to that and it does kinda calm me down ..


Xxx