Thanks to ALL who have taken the time to respond to me. Very much appreciated. My surgery is tomorrow. I've not had time to wallow in my diagnosis and kept myself busy and of course I have read ALL of your lovely replies and well wishes. I've had Avrul Bluming's book a while and will address the issue of staying on very low dose HRT v Tamoxifen post surgery. I've already started to wean off since last Tuesday and already noticed a difference
My menopause specialist has yet to respond to my further questions given its been a long bank holiday weekend, I shall now wait until after surgery to chase her up. I refuse to be "thrown under a bus re hormones" and will not go back to the dark place I was in last year. I have ordered a Ladycare magnet and menopause aromatherapy cream but nothing can beat a dab of oestrogen! I want this nasty lump out and then get the pathology results. Up until then, I will continue to wean and use a dab here and there. One lump in 17 years of using HRT.
If my diagnosis wasn't bad enough, my husband had a seizure yesterday..completely out of the blue. We had just had a drive out in his pride and joy sports car and had, luckily, stopped for a coffee and nice cafe. 10 mins inside cafe and boom he collapsed. Came round quickly but cafe owner was first aid trained and called an ambulance. We spent 6 hours at the hospital getting him checked over and then discharged for GP to sort and refer to neurology. Life is certainly giving us a kicking at the moment but...onwards and upwards.
Again, thank you ALL for being so kind and supportive. Much love back at you all and I'll keep you posted once I'm through tomorrow xxx