Another day...
Listened to a guided mediation on YouTube for sleep and managed to have quite a restful, if short, sleep.
I was chatting to one of my friends yesterday who is 41. She said that for the past 2 years her periods have been sort of fading away and she doesn't really get them much any more. She said that from what she understood, it went either one way or the other with your periods during perimenopause. Either like her, or like me.
She said what she's really struggling with was the insomnia and dealing with the lack of sleep. Honestly, the insomnia feels like the least worrying thing for me.
I feel not too bad today, so far. But I feel broken by this whole thing. I just want this whole thing to stop now. I've had enough of it all. It's just totally taken over my whole life. It feels like there isn't one part of my life that's not been affected by it.
I already did whole life overhaul thing recently. I've just been through that, starting 3 and a bit years ago now. When my (now ex) husband left, seemingly out of the blue to me at that time. And he went to have a child with the young woman he'd been having an affair with pretty much straight away after leaving.
I really don't have the energy for another one of these life overhaul type things. I don't.