Hi Angel.
I'm so sorry about your ex, must have been a shock. I know he's an ex, but you may still have feelings for him, as a friend, if not anything else, I, mean, you were with him for 9 years of your life, and he's probably not that old is he?
BUT, you have to think of yourself, you're not with him anymore, he must have family or a support network for himself, and because you're feeling so shit, you have to put yourself first. The ladies are right, it's all down to anxiety and this crappy meno, YOU WILL feel better, but at the moment you can see no end to it, I know, but you will.
Have you got a bath? If so go and have a nice long soak, read/ listen to what you like music wise, that helps, or watch something, anything that takes your mind off things.
But I still think it's the Femseven patches not suiting you.
You seriously need to de-stress, have you anyone to talk to? Family/friends?
Take care babe, keep posting......xxxx