Thanks again dancing Girl! I'm from Greece and gyns are too afraid to prescribe hrt. Oestrogel doesn't exist in pharmacies in my country and I can only combine pills to find the correct but I'm a little scare. I had an "estrogen crash" a few months ago with very severe symptoms,as insulin intolerance, dry eyes, insomnia, muscle aches and brain fog. I thought that I had lupus or dementia. I lost my muscle mass and I couldn't go to gym cause I was feeling too tired. I feel like a failure cause I have to take hrt, you're right, it's difficult for me to accept it and I have a great difficult to handle aging and death. I'm sad and very afraid of breast cancer. I think that hrt is the only way to cope with all these and I'll take it until I die I think!
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