I am suffering big time - and have for the last three years. It started with something simple [my teeth] and has progressed around my body with symptom after symptom. All of which have caused massive bouts of anxiety, then gone. I have had brief periods of respite then WHAM, it's back somewhere else. Each time I am convinced THIS IS IT, it is serious and each time, it isn't. [But obviously as I am in the middle of an episode now, it is it this time]. Strangely, I used to have massive panic attacks, but don't anymore - it is as if this is the new manifestation of my anxiety syndrome. I was always a major worrier/glass half empty and suffer from low self esteem due to crap parents, and I think that is a major cause of HA.
What cures it is being busy, but I can't be out and about and busy all the time, I need to manage on my own resources and face the beast. It is as if I have two personalities - one a bonkers lunatic who body-checks/googles/posts on forums and cries. Another is the one I was before all this - tough/funny/ambitious/fit and well. The fit one is slightly ashamed of the bonkers one and has only admitted how bad it gets on here, never to a real person.
Admittedly this last bout came after a massively stressful financial issue that my OH and I are still sorting out [we are on top of it and have expert advice, and are far from destitute]. But I can't go on like this, I need to learn coping strategies.
So - I am going to dentist in the morning for check-up and will pluck up courage to ask about my latest symptom [strange loss of red colour under tongue, which might be a spot under the surface as isn't a sore or anything, which might well be normal and just never fixated on it before!]. IF it is nothing, then I will avoid just thinking I am cured and seek help/new strategies so that I can cope the next time. IF it is something, then I will need support as I will explode with anxiety. So, either way - I need support. I tried CBT but found it too paper-work heavy and it actually made me dwell more on my problems, rather than less. So, any other suggestions? I already run three times a week, do yoga and eat a very healthy, caffeine and largely alcohol free diet. And I avoid sugar except for the occasional cake or biscuit. Am on oestrogen only HRT as have had hysterectomy years ago. I have tried with/without HRT and it seems to make no difference to my anxiety.
Sorry to go on like this, but it helps just to write it down. All ideas welcome!