I can empathise with you as I was in your position a few months ago. Life had no meaning and I had no feelings for or about anyone or anything. I could not see the point in living. I wouldn't take the prescription meds as they all had their own side effects, and my anxiety and panic attacks rendered me unable to swallow tablets. I had every meno symptom possible.
Now, I am able to function again, and although I still sleep in our spare room as I do get up at least once in the night, and I still have BMS to an extent, I feel more like "me". The insomnia and anxiety were probably the worst symptoms. Hrt had stopped working for me, and several different types were prescribed. My GP put me back on an hrt I had been on for years, with no problems. This then had to be increased, and my GP finally did hormone tests and acknowledged that I had been right to insist that it was hormone deficiency that had caused all the problems. I now take vit d, vit b12 complex and magnesium, in cell salts and in a spray before bed. Magnesium has been an absolute God send for me. I really hope you feel better soon, as the place you are in is not a nice place, but when you find the right regime for you, everything will improve. Stay strong, as this is all a long process, but try to live each day, one at a time, and don't have too high expectations. You WILL feel better!
