Just had a blissful nights sleep, though my chest feels very tight. New inhaler gives me palpitations. I'm wondering how I did what did when I got home yesterday. Adrenaline? I won't be doing anything today.
DH has to do some work today (financially rewarding as well as fulfilling) so has arranged for my fellow grandmother, who is lovely, to look after GS here instead of at my daughters. I'm looking forward to seeing them. I don't feel safe to be on my own yet.
I think recovery isn't going to be quick. I have to see a GP in a few days, which I'm glad about. I need to discuss if there is any way I can avoid all this happening again, e.g. Pneumonia vaccine. I was offered it years back, but can't remember why I didn't have it. It seems that I have become vulnerable as I am getting older. (3 asthma/infection illnesses in 4 years, 2 requiring hospitalisation.) Inbetween and before, I managed my asthma very well. A lot of friends didn't know I had asthma, because I looked after myself.
Had a lovely discussion with my other roommate about whether we were scared of dying. We both felt it wasn't dying that was scary, but we both have so much to live for and don't want to miss out! Anyway, I shall find some equilibrium about this. Now to get on with living.