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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #45 on: October 15, 2016, 11:43:44 AM »

You have all the symptoms I have

I gained 10llbs-stone

I lost my appetite whilst on holiday so chose starters for main and I've kept it going and in just a few weeks gone from 10st to 9st5llb

I'm determined to get down to 9st 'ish now and keep it off

My sympathies go to you re hair thinning, it's really sapped the last bit of confidence out of me xxx
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abbyH

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #46 on: October 16, 2016, 10:39:56 AM »

it's all around my middle!
classic 'middle aged spread' but I'm doing my best to exercise and eat well...

:( does Testosterone affect all of this?

Abby
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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #47 on: October 16, 2016, 11:02:59 AM »

Yes Abby it does

When the meno nurse first said she's reckons I'd benefit from T I quickly looked up the symptoms, from what I remember they are:

Hair loss
Weight gain (particularly tummy area)
Anxiety
Low mood
Low sense of wellbeing
Muscle loss
Low/loss of libido (reduced or less intense orgasms)
Fatigue

Oh there's more but I can't remember them, I also have started with stiff joints, dry eye through the night (Keepgoing reported this has eased for her since starting T)

I've been on oestrogen for years and felt great until 4 years ago so I knew something was missing, I'm pretty sure I've ruled out everything else, double vision started 2 years ago and so that threw me off track with thinking meno and neurologist thought I might have Myasthenia Gravis because of vision and muscle weakness but I haven't presented (thank god) with any further problems relating to it

I still don't know if T is my answer, but the chance to see means everything x
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Tempest

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #48 on: October 16, 2016, 12:05:52 PM »

That's me, that is! In a nutshell. ;D ;D ;D
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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #49 on: October 16, 2016, 12:17:56 PM »

That's me, that is! In a nutshell. ;D ;D ;D

It's horrid isn't it Tempest?
I said in the week to my daughter that hopefully I'll be running around soon, she said not to pin my hopes too high, but I need my energy and everything else back, my house is a tip and it really gets me down x
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Tempest

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #50 on: October 16, 2016, 12:51:42 PM »

I know what you're saying, Annie! Just about managed to drag the hoover over the downstairs and stairs today, and did the dusting yesterday. It now takes me all week to do the housework instead of tearing through in a couple of hours!

I'm very encouraged by keepgoing's progress - I'm so glad it's making a difference for her! I'm sure this WILL be you soon! xxxxx
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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #51 on: October 16, 2016, 01:20:41 PM »

Keepgoing is doing amazing ! Even her trip to the cinema got me smiling :-)
I want to be out enjoying social events too

We will get there Tempest, our journies will be different and higher mountains to climb than each other, but we must reach that goal of sanity, calm and happiness x
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abbyH

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #52 on: October 16, 2016, 02:32:40 PM »

yes!
1 stone gain - from being slim fit active and happy
mainly on belly, I look like a cartoon, slim legs and arm and weird fat deposit around middle!
80% hair loss. From 2011-2014 gradual but noticeable and since Ovary removal drastic! have almost nothing left :(
anxiety
low mood
loss of libido - broke up with partner because of all above
low energy to exercise, tire on exertion (where previously was super fit and toned)
muscle to fat ratio different.. Am Mr Blobby!

Am so tired of going to Doc with same symptoms and worry.. have been through: fibroids, hysterectomy, anemia, thyroid problems, ovary removal and sporadic depression so bad I have considered suicide.
Loss of self
Want to hibernate all time and am embarrassed to be with people feel old ugly and past it

So, hope that T can alleviate some of these symptoms have really struggled.. :(
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Tempest

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #53 on: October 16, 2016, 05:07:15 PM »

Dear Annie and Abby! I want to send both of you a very big hug! I know, Annie - I smiled too when I read about Keepgoing going to the cinema. That's exactly the kind of things I want to be able to do spontaneously again. We will, we MUST get there!!

Abby - I can relate exactly to what you're saying! This is my experience totally since my oopherectomy. I'm so ashamed of the belly - that's where all my weight is too and I was slim before! It's a 10lb weight gain for me too, despite eating extremely healthily. This is also why, whatever I'm told, that I REFUSE to believe deep down that any of this is anything other than hormonal. I NEVER had anxiety before! Now it's a huge beast that controls my life. Yes, I used to get anxious about things as all people do, but this is just total random terror!

Why on earth this isn't being officially recognised as a symptom of either total ovarian failure or surgical menopause, I have no idea. It's not something we have any control over, for heaven's sake and God knows I've tried. Even the Psychiatrist i see thinks it IS related to loss of hormones and this is why he refuses to force drugs on me apart from offering the odd diazepam for relief until my hormones have been restored as best as they can be.

The fight for our wellbeing and sanity continues, ladies........It's wonderful that at least we have this place to meet up and share our experiences and support each other. xxxx
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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #54 on: October 16, 2016, 05:14:04 PM »

Ladies, as well as the anxiety (I never suffered either before meno or pmt, ever) do you both struggle to cope with stress ? I find I distance myself if anyone is having problems as I can't cope with anything negative around me, whereas before this I was considered a good listener

So much of me has gone hidden x
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abbyH

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #55 on: October 16, 2016, 05:47:01 PM »

Thank you both so much for posting this! it makes me feel like I'm not alone and going mad!

I just want to be in a place taking hormones where I dont' feel like I"m pregnant! (except without the glow!) I feel fat, unnattractive and awful and like 52 is too young to feel my life as a woman is over!

I will update as I get some news from chelsea and westminster and Dr Panay and his team. Got letter through on Friday just have to ring and make appointment!

Abby
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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #56 on: October 16, 2016, 06:38:54 PM »

Aw Abby I feel sure you'll get help from nick Panay.  Good luck and yes keep us updated xx
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Tempest

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #57 on: October 16, 2016, 08:13:45 PM »

Absolutely, Annie! I've shut myself away from so much because of this. Before, I was a Certified Accountant and I can't imagine being able to deal with a job like that now. Also, I never used to think twice about communicating with anyone on any level. I even get in a state when my dear brother comes to visit from Wales. He is lovely and an extremely intelligent man and we used to have such in depth and fascinating conversations. Now, it's like I've even lost my confidence to do that. My brain feels so slow, like it can't keep up and I feel totally inept. :(

I feel exactly the same at 47, Abby! I'm so, so glad that you are going to be in excellent hands with Dr. Panay. Thank goodness he is an advovate for the use of Testosterone - if anyone can have you feeling well again, it is he.

I just want to also bring up Patsy Kensit. Do any of you remember when the poor lassie was on This Morning and she was slated as being drunk and it turned out she had been overdosed on Estrogen? She had a terrible time! I recall she was awfully bloated and even slurring her words a bit. She also had the 'hundred yard stare', which I've experienced when I've overdone it - she looked demented. Now it's a totally different story and I read recently since she is balanced that she feels like 'she has been given another bite of the apple'. She looks great, too! She did admit at one point that her Consultant took her Testosterone away for a little while because she was too fond if it! He told her to use the size of a pea, but she said she was using the size of a brussel sprout! God love her. :)
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Keepgoing

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #58 on: October 16, 2016, 08:23:21 PM »

Aww thank you Annie and tempest I thourghly enjoyed my trip to the cinema and I'm glad it gave yous a wee smile.  I am still feeling good, a wee bit tired at the mo cause period due in 2 days but I can honestly say my head space is much more peaceful and I feel confident in the things I am tackling again. It is all thanks to this site that I started my quest for T, as I said it was never on my radar as something my body might be missing...but I had all the symptoms. I am hugely surprised at the difference it has made to me and I now feel like my old self again pre peri.  All I need to do is shift 1 and a half stone that I have put on with all this ( a stone of which was prempak c for 9 weeks). Hopefully with the T kicking into my system it won't take long...I joined slimming world about 6 months ago and all I could shift was 2lb even tho I stuck to it religiously, even went to exercise classes once a week to help but nope it didn't all it did was zap my energy for about 2 days after. And yes most of it went on round the belly...I have never had a belly.  So going to stick to my healthy eating and exercise class and see if it helps.  Annie how are you getting on with the T...tempest I really hope you get your estrogen levels up, like you I am on the gel but unlike you I have never had a problem with it since day 1...tablets and patches caused me problems. Just goes to show how different we all are hormonally...as my name says Keepgoing as I now feel I'm out the other end but at some points I felt like just giving in...I'm glad I never...big hugs to everyone feeling rotten at the mo it's so horrible at times xxx
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Annie0710

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Re: My fight for testosterone
« Reply #59 on: October 16, 2016, 08:59:24 PM »

Tempest I wasn't at your level but at 38 I started nightschool whilst working during the day to learn bookkkeeping (computerised and manual ), I passed my exams easily and some before the rest of the class as I threw myself into it.  I managed to get a job in bookkeeping and they loved me, said I was the most competent, friendly and methodical bookkeeper they'd ever had.  I fitted right in from day one and was there 7.5 years.  Then peri hit, I'd look at my reconciliations and it could've been in Japanese for what sense it made to me, I thought I had early onset dementia, I'd hear ringing in my ears, I felt lightheaded and suddenly the job I loved became a nightmare I wanted to hide away from.  I was petite, bubbly and joined in the guys banter. Almost overnight I didn't recognise myself at all, I was thinking to call my mum after I'd zonked out on the sofa after work but then remembered she'd passed away 10 years previously, that'd upset me then but I was guessing I yearned for a hug from her, to tell me this was normal, I was gobsmacked when the bloods showed peri and b12d, the symptoms overlapped and not having had periods since my hysterectomy 13 years before I'd never known and thought I'd skipped the menopause when they said my ovaries failed back then

Keepgoing - good to hear from you, please keep in touch as I need to know your progress 😘 I'm on day 4 of a pea size blob (prob more like petis pois) and don't feel any different (I didn't expect to either so soon), but this last week my scalp has itched again which normally means one thing = more hairloss 😢 I feel gutted as I've started wearing clip in extensions and powder to cover visible thinning and that itself has given me a boost.  I really feel like menopause is out to finish me off and the more I try to fight it, the harder it comes and hits me

i so need this T to stop this hair malarkey and even help me grow the missing bits x
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