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[Taz2]

We are all different as to what makes us anxious. I feel I can get out of a situation where people are milling around and chatting to each other rather than sat in a service where you have to negotiate out of the pew and walk down a, maybe, long aisle with everyone wondering where you are going.

Taz x

[CLKD]

Yep.  Can't be shut in anywhere these days, find shopping difficult if it's busy  and don't go to visit friends in their homes in case I have a panic attack ……..

Hope this afternoon goes OK BJ?

[babyjane]

It was at a spanking new modern crem with views over the countryside and all the doors to the room were open.  I had an end of row seat so everything was fine    Husband and his colleagues all went to the wake and he was there for three hours and thoroughly enjoyed mingling and chatting and reminiscing without having to worry about whether I was all right, or leave early because of me.

[CLKD]

  +  .  Any wobbles at all?

[babyjane]

Only when the deceased's niece played and sang her favourite song 

[CLKD]

Oh.  Tissues to hand?

[babyjane]

I didn't realise this yesterday but the funeral was full (room to hold 150 people, every seat filled, and people standing at the back). Thinking about it this morning there was a group of people standing in front of the doorway.  6 months ago if I had even been in the room I would have panicked about people standing behind us and I would not have tolerated the door being blocked by people.  this morning I realised that it did not even enter my head that there were people in front of the doorway.

It's when I see evidence of the small improvements like that I feel reassured and that I am getting better

[Taz2]

Well done babyjane. If you haven't already done so then get a small, pretty notebook and begin to write down the positives because it is so easy to forget them when you are having a not-so-good day. Never a negative only the positives.

Taz x

[babyjane]

  one day I will feel like this without medication and without therapy but at the moment the medication (ultra low doses) is helping me learn from my psychotherapy and I am actually starting to like myself a little bit 

[CLKD]

You looks OK from where I be a sitting …….. 

Little steps!

[babyjane]

 

I'm not daft, I know I won't feel up every single day but at the moment I am encouraged.

Yesterday my son sent me a quote, it says

'Not everyone will understand your journey.  That's fine.  It's not their journey to make sense of.  It's yours.'

[CLKD]

I LOVE that. 

I've decided that if I can't go into Church on Wed. I may manage the Hotel after 

[Hurdity]

Well ladies, I managed the family occasion and my trip to Venice. I arrived home yesterday and felt relieved. CLKD I also get myself into a state for weeks leading up to an event, to the point where I feel I'm going to have a breakdown! Deep down I know I'll be ok but it doesn't stop the anxiety and worry beforehand.
It's another place of the bucket list and I don't have to think about going away again for a good while.
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Shellb - I don't think any of us have commented yet!!! The thread got side-tracked as they do  . Your original post expressed worries about your family occasion and trip to Venice so it's great news that you managed to do both of these without mishap. Well done you!    .

Venice is lovely - where did you stay and what did you see? I expect you rode the vaporettos - did you go to any of the islands like Murana or Torcello?  I went there with my daughter a couple of years ago, and 8 years ago with husband and two sons. I could quite happily go again it's so beautiful!

Now you've done that and it wasn't so bad - maybe you can think about the next trip and it won't worry you quite so much?

Hurdity x

[CLKD]

Sorry this certainly did get missed - I had a school friend who promised to take me to Venice as that was his ancestral home, we never did get there  - we were 11 at the time  .  Glad that you managed Shelib but sometimes I do wonder if all the prior angst is worth the upheaval in my guts  . 

[Spangles]

Hi Hurdity and CLKD
It's definately the bill up to things, if some one told me "we will be flying in two hours", I think I would be excited as there would be no time to think!
We had a lovely time, I had anxiety in the background in case anything happened.
We did all of the lovely tourist things and yes Hurdity, we used the vapourer to all the time to get to where we wanted to be, we then walked back to our hotel and took pleasure in getting lost! We stayed about 3 minutes walk from St Marke Square.
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