OMG Ladies, it's like reading my story on here

, I was thinking through the other day which parts of my body have actually "escaped" from my anxiety, not many!!
I have always had health anxiety, but when i was younger could say to myself, no your too young to be having a heart attack/stroke etc etc, you know how it goes, but now i'm in my 50's i can't use that one

I worry myself silly, but won't actually go to the doctors in case he finds something wrong lol
I have gallstones which do give me lot's of problems, but i won't go for the op (cancelled it twice) because i'm afraid of the GA, I also have osteoarthritis but i can cope with that one. For the last 3 weeks or so i've had some kind of breathing thing , which i know for a fact is brought on by anxiety, but at the time it's happening that doesn't help, because remember, this could be the one time it's NOT anxiety!!! then the last 3 night's I've had palpitations just before bed, which have got me in such a state (i'm having a heart attack for sure) that I've come down stairs because I'm shaking like someone in a freezer lol, my DH try's his best to help, but i don't like to use the "meno" thing with him, we've only been married 3 years, so I want him to see me as younger for as long as poss, IYKWIM.
My daughter is getting married early 2017, and i'm already getting myself in a state thinking about it, full day out, what if i'm dizzy etc etc. the annoying thing is, when i'm "well" I look back and don't even recognize that woman, I tell myelf next time it happens i will have a stern word with her, but then a pain appears and all my good intentions go out the window, and i'm a quivering wreck again, I'm supposed to be going for a blood test, i have to have my iron checked every 12 months, but when i went to get the slip from the docs to take with me, he's put me down for fasting test's too, to check cholesterol etc , so i've not been yet, it was over a month ago, because I don't want to know if it's high, it will just be another thing to worry about.
Oh the joy's of meno, I am in 2 minds as to whether to see the doc about HRT, has anyone found the health anxiety is helped by it? or do we just add breast cancer and DVT to the list of health worries lol
Joyce xx