Thanks for starting this thread CKLD, back in 2008, but I am sorry you have had such a bad experience of vomit.
Emetophobia or vomit faschination must be something that I have/had, but I didn't know it.
This post is long but I hope it is a good read and doesn't make anyone sick.
I get that it is a control issue, or fear of lack of control.
I've never heard of the gut feeling forum, I will have a google, although I am reading posts that are seven years old now.
Just reading this thread makes me amazed that so many people feel bad about this whole subject and it isn't just me.
I've got a colourful pavement pizza of a selection of vomit and vomit related stories to share. Maybe not for the super squeamish.
As a child I had a fixation on vomiting, and used to remember, for years, dates, when either I was sick, or someone else was sick.
I remember asking repeated questions to school friends, partners, work colleagues, to relay incidences when they had thrown up, and wanting to know the amount, and the colour/consistency of it.
I hate nausea and vomiting and it seems that other people can do it and then forget about it, or they can do loads of things even if they are nauseous and still make it to the loo.
As an adult, I mostly feel much better straight after I have vomited, but as a kid, I would vomit, the stomach ache would build up again, vomit some more, and repeat this process for a whole day or night, and there would always be loads of the stuff, wheras as an adult, there would not be so much quantity.
I dunno why kids seem to store a whole days food in their stomach and then spend the next day vomiting copious amounts, all over the place.
I sometimes hate being around drunk people if I think they are going to throw up.
You know when you get in that mood where you are online and you watch certain things, I dunno, some days it's cooking videos, other days, it's comedy, or art vids, etc, well, I went through a phase where I was watching vomit videos, there's loads of them, people make themselves deliberately sick to record, not anorexia, for novelty's sake. People taking ipecac, the vomit inducing emetic substance.
I didn't heave while watching them, mostly.
I remember a few years ago, walking down the road, with a friend, who suddenly threw up, and next thing you know, I'd run off, about ten yards down the road and only caught up with her when we were away from the sick.
I used to hate being sick. I hate the nausea before hand, not knowing if you are going to be sick, as sometimes, you can go all pale and sweaty, etc, but not throw up.
I heave if I see vomit in the street.
I tried to to nurse training but was asked to leave as I could not cope with the whole nursing thing on the ward, but one of the fears was vomit.
It was so bad that I would retch, and my nursing tutor, who trained and monitored pupil nurses used to make me look at people's vomit to try and get me over it.
I felt like I was weak, and wondered why I could not 'grow out of' it, and I remember a ward sister getting really cross with me, because a patient in a side room had thrown up absolutely all over, she had ms, dunno if it was due to that or what, and it stank.
Being nurses, vomit was something we used to have to measure, to take note of, etc, for the patients notes.
Some people are just prone to vomiting, and my ex was one of them. He could not understand why I was so obsessed with it and it drove a bit of a wedge between us.
It was only several years after we split up and were reminiscing that I thought to tell him about my nursing vomit experiieince.
I hate the smell of sick. I fear being puked on. I don't have kids, I couldn't clean up someone else's sick, my own sick even makes me wretch.
Sometimes though, I hate that nausea feeling so much, that if I think/know I am going to be sick, I stick my finger down and get it over with, but other times, I don't because I would rather the nausea go away, than me throw up and have to look at my puke.
I remember being on a hydrofoil (sp?) on holiday and me and my friends went to the far and and sat because we wanted to maximise the feeling of the waves, but I didn't bargain for being seasick, and I went out the way of my friends and saw loads of other people being sea sick too.
Ferries on rough sees also make me feel sick. I don't get carsick and I used to like fairground rides, but I hate seeing other people be sick at the fair.
I think that the sight of someone being sick can easily make me heave, and others too.
There are a few occasions over the years, when I have woken in the night, feeling really queasy, vomiting and having diarrhoea at the same time, this is without drink.
I've got so scared of this that any time I think I am going to throw up, I sit on the toilet with a bucket, or lean my head over the sink while on the loo.
The last time was january, I woke up shivery feeling really strange, and then I suddenly knew I was going to be sick and there would be no time to get out of bed and to the bathroom, so I emptied a plastic waste bucket of it's rubbish and threw up in there, while sat on the bed, and I also leaked out of my back passage.
I remember walking home from school, suddenly feeling sick, sat on the floor, nauseous, pale, sweaty, and I heaved, but no sick came out, but at the same time, again, I leaked out of my back passage.
This is a fear of mine, being somewhere like work and it happening.
Once at work, I felt all faint etc, and when I went to the loo, I sat on the loo, better to be sick on the floor rather than sh1t on the floor of the work loos.
I had a bad episode of sudden liquid poo, but no nausea, but then I felt better.
I can't overfill my stomach as I feel like I am going to throw up.
Even though I have had loads of therapy for anxiety and the vomiting thing is prominent with me, I cannot remember ever telling a therapist about it.
I also have a strange but very similar fear of fainting, and when I see someone faint, I suddenly feel faint myself and have to sit down, before I fall down.
I can't explain why this happens.
If I am in conflict with someone, I get so nervous I think I will faint or vomit.
I have never actually fainted, the nearest I have got was my legs going to jelly, but me sitting down before I fell down.
I suppose fainting and throwing up have similarities in that both of them can feel similar, and you get that horrible feeling sometimes, when you don't know if you are going to throw up, or faint, or sh1t yourself.
Sorry about TMI, but I cannot ever do a blowjob, because of fear of vomiting. The sight of sperm makes me feel sick, so I could not imagine the stuff in my mouth, and would always be afraid of the man not being able to control whether he might ejaculate into my mouth.
I only heard of emetophobia when I started using the internet. I realised that I was not a weirdo afterall.
This post has grown really long so I best stop there in case it wont let me type any more characters, hope I didn't kill the thread, or sicken anyone off (pun)
