Thank you so much for your kindness and comments, I have just lit a candle and raised a glass of wine in memory of our dear, sweet, lovely cat. Taz2 I understand what you mean and you're right, I'm so glad I got him home and we buried him in our garden. No wondering and hoping, I know exactly where he is and will plant a shrub in his honour and memory. His brother is beside me, looking slightly lost but getting "twice the love"! I appreciate you all taking the time to respond, and to those who know from experience exactly how I feel - I am sorry for your loss also.
Lots of love, Spadger x