I don't equate the "real me" with the "younger me". I've never wanted to turn the clock back and am happy growing older.
What I mean by the "real me" is the 60 year old woman free from all the HRT baggage - rubbing on gels, shoving in capsules and pessaries and poring over the calendar trying to plan my next bleed. I love being free from all that. That's what I find energising.
The truth is when I'm pumped up on HRT it feels like I'm "synthetic me"!
Stellajane - I couldn't agree more.
This is exactly how I'm feeling at the moment.
I'm tired of HRT (mainly progesterone) after all these years of trying different regimes - for me it has never done what it says on the tin - the 'pay off' effects of estrogen have never been that great.
The last use of Utrogestan 100mg was particularly horrendous and I've decided to have a break from HRT - apart from Vagifem.
So, I've booked myself a HRT-free holiday and I'm 2 days in.
[My 'tailored' ultra low HRT regime is: half of 25 Estraderm patch, Utro 100mg x 10 days every 6 weeks, plus twice yearly endo scans, no bleed on this, just maybe brown discharge sometimes - but I so
DREAD taking the Utro - and so does my partner, for how it transforms me into an absolute witch. Literally he only has to breath (whistling through one nostril) for me to lose my rag.]
Due to progesterone intolerance I have never found one that I am able to take - and still function.
Taking my usual supplements and lots of fish oil. Last time I tried this was c.2 years ago and after 3 months I was a wreck. Maybe this time it will be different. I would like my body to settle naturally and adjust to low levels.
At last meno clinic appt, I discussed with the consultant that at nearly 52 years and c.7 years post meno - how would
continuing declining levels of estrogen affect me. I was told that my estrogen level had dropped to a
consistent low of c.155 - my body had '
done its worst' - and that the natural level would stay more or less the same.
[Re: hair loss - in individuals genetically predisposed to female pattern baldness - I was also told that natural estrogen acts as a 'protective cap' on the head and that when levels decline, even if estrogen is supplemented with HRT, the tiny amount of testosterone still produced converts to DHT on the scalp and miniaturises each hair. Great.]
Anyway, I'm hoping the Vagifem will keep VA at bay - and that I can last without having to go back on patches/prog.
Stellajane - have you found some use of Utrogestan worse than other times. (It's always bad for me but last use was exceptional, the clear message from my body was: toxic, stop this).
Night_Owl
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