Mrs January, my former husband died of a horrid brain tumor. I took care of him by myself with minimal outside 'help' and this forum supported me through the many lonely night hours for months (I'm in US). Amazingly, I wrote the journal of my after death experiences with a continual visit from Monarch butterfly's (the butterfly is a symbol of after death communication) and it was seen on the internet by a man writing a book, which included, death and near death experiences, and he is now my husband. Rather amazing as I am the oldest person on this forum and never did I think I could be as happy as I am.