Broke through a brick wall mentally today. 

 Went for a jog on Monday that ended up being horrific.  It was sooo hot and I have never ran in the heat before (i live in Scotland remember!).  Anyway on Monday my legs felt like lead - I could barely breathe and my face felt like it was going to burst with the heat.  I hardly managed anything.  Went home and felt really ill for the rest of the day. I was so disappointed - wanted to give up.  Anyway today I was scheduled to be going back out again with my trainer - I woke up at 7.30 am and the first thing I did was burst into tears - i just felt that everything was too hard - couldn't face my jog - couldn't face stresscos (no food in the cupboard) - couldn't make a decision but knew I wanted to cancel the day and stay in bed.
I didn't!  I dragged myself up - dried my tears - delegated stresscos to my kids and went out running.  For the first few minutes I was crying - just felt too overwhelmed with it all.  Anyway I ran for 8 minutes non stop!!! That is a huge success for me - so am well chuffed.  I kept going but we broke it down into run/walk - the block of runs were much longer than previously.  So here we are a few hours later - kids at the shops - my run was not a failure - getting ready to go out for lunch with a friend and have just sent an email to a woman for hypno to help me get on that plane in three weeks - so all in all an improvement since 7.30 this morning.
8 minutes!!!  Am well chuffed.  

 Still got a long way to go but thats ok.  Xxx