Hello all
Thanks so much for the replies, God I feel wired to the moon but reassured to hear this calms down. I am sticking with it, but I have high cortisol sort of adrenaline rushes (like someone walked over my grave feeling when my hairs stand on end, it's like foil on your fillings, but inside your body if that makes sense) and that tight as a piano wire feeling in my body, still shaking and vibrating and I'm an insecure mess. Doesn't help that my partner's ex has kicked off once again this weekend over shared custody, really really vile stuff with me as the target again (all nonsense, but there's a little kid in the middle of this) and he and I have argued as the boundaries are all over the place as she just bulldozes him, and he's punch drunk with it, and she scares the beejaysus out of me, so that hasn't helped my equilibrium (really couldn't have been a worst weekend for it, last weekend I was Dalai Lama like in my zenlike calm and bloody poise!). My hands are shaking and I just feel 'revved' - hard to explain if you haven 't experienced it, which I know you have Madame O, why don't doctors know what this is?? Defo going back to back. I think having a bleed would have helped, as normally I'm like this just before my period, and obviously no relief there this time (telling myself it's worth it for hanging onto my iron).
Crispy, you are in absolute iron deficiency (ferritin under 30), serum iron is a volatile number (it varies day to day, but is still a bit low) but your storage iron is dreadful and this will make you anxious, emotional, shaky, ragey, you name it. See here for list of symptoms
https://www.oatext.com/iron-deficiency-without-anemia-common-important-neglected.php Do you know your Hb and RBC and how's your folate, MCH, MCV etc? Really, really, really urge you to get on top of that, maybe a gentle iron (solgar do one that's OK if your gut can handle it, 20mg per tab) you want to be taking up to 200mg ELEMENTAL iron a day, with vit c, in split doses if that's easier, best in the morning if you can manage it. Even better if you can tolerate fumerate it's better absorbed (many can't handle the side effects, especially the stomach side effects), again take 200mg ELEMENTAL iron, I think there's 65mg per tablet, so you need at least three. Honestly, for all the crappy symptoms this weekend, overall I am a different woman with my iron fixed. I'd be a basket case with a ferritin of 29!! I am really symptomatic with a ferritin anywhere south of 100. Hb must always be over 127, ideally over 130. I know I'm on a soapbox, but I've been hospitalised twice with horrible panic like anxiety and skipping beats, I've done the round of cardiologists etc, all baffled, it was my bloody iron! It's wrecked my life for at least a decade, I feel very passionately women deserve better care.
Thanks all, will keep you posted, I just need this stretched tight to quivering point feeling to calm down!!
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