Hi NaturalMystic,
It's a shame we couldn't give each other hugs sometimes, cause I was as bad as you last December, when I felt so dreadful I took 4 pumps of oestrogen (big mistake for me). Iv realised now any hormones I take I have to change really slowly otherwise it just floors me with suicidal depression, if I increase or decrease slowly I manage to cope better.
I noticed someone mentioned a B complex vitamin, which a few of us at work have been taking and we are all in agreement i.e., couldn't believe how quickly it made a difference to levels of anxiety (we all presumed it must be a placebo effect until we compared notes), so I would strongly recommend that too.
NaturalMystic hang on in there, you will come through this and isn't this forum a lifesaver when you feel you can't go on and can't bear going back to your Gp again, but in the meantime, I'm sending you big virtual hugs xx