Tonight, for the first time in I can't remember when, I went for a drink after work with my colleagues. I was so nervous about it as it was going to involve sitting down. We got a taxi from work to a wine bar in Covent Garden and I sat with my hand underneath my right buttock as usual, got into the wine bar, found a table and sat with my hand underneath my right buttock - so fed up with it all. Here is the thing though, after about an hour of discomfort, with spasms in my pelvic floor, it gradually improved and after a few glasses of wine I found I could sit comfortably and chat to my friends - a combination of relaxation and distraction I guess. I couldn't sit on the train on the way home though but it does show that the brain has a lot to do with this pain. I'm not suggesting we spend our lives tipsy but we certainly do need to try and relax and divert our brains. I'm acutely aware of how vicious this circle is, pain = stress and stress = more pain, but how do we break it?
