Hi!
I'm sorry you're struggling right now.
Two years ago, at 49, I started having severe insomnia due to hot flashes at night.
I went to my gynecologist, who prescribed me Lenzetto 2 sprays and 1 capsule of utrogestan at nigt. My blood results before HRT were estrogen:16, progesterone 0.02. So, my hormones were close to zero.
I felt so bad that I couldn't get out of bed.
After 2 weeks of using 2 sprays of Lenzetto, I felt even worse. My anxiety went through the roof!!!
The anxiety was so bad that I thought I was going to die.
I had known anxiety before, but in this case it was something completely different, sort of chemical anxiety that completely paralyzed me.
It was so bad that I had to go to the hospital, where they diagnosed tachyphylaxis syndrome, because my estrogen levels had tripled in less than 2 weeks.
I reduced the dose to 1 spray, but the anxiety did not subside. After 1 month of using 1 spray, I was so weak that I could not even shower.
The gynecologist then prescribed me 2 more types of HRT and I must say that experimenting with HRT for several months completely destroyed me.
Today I know that I am a very hormonally sensitive woman and that unfortunately I belong to the group of women for whom no HRT suits them, in fact it harms them, due to the many side effects.
I am very, very disappointed and also furious, because only the positive effects of HRT are highlighted, and not the negative ones. It saddens me that HRT is presented as a miracle cure, but in reality many women do not find the right balance and are condemned to experimenting for several months or even several years with HRT.
I suggest you check out Paula Rastrick website.
She also had a very negative experience with HRT and explains why some women simply cannot tolerate HRT.
I think we should talk about this more and not push women to use higher and higher doses of estrogen, because very high levels of estrogen are not necessarily the answer to all menopausal problems.
Namely, when no form of HRT helped me, I felt like a loser, saying to myself, what kind of body do I have that hormones don't help me?
This experience was very painful for me and I felt completely alone, because I knew women who had HRT help them immediately and felt great on it.
After 1 year of experimenting with HRT I was devastated and in desperation I started taking AD mirtazapine, which helped me through the worst.
I am currently ok and functioning, confident that this nightmare will end someday.
I have only described my experience, which does not mean that it is impossible that you will not find the right type and dose of HRT.
I hope you find a solution as soon as possible and feel well again.
Sending you a big hug!
Love,
Emma