First of all

I'm going to split your thread to make it easier for me to read

There is always help - which symptom would u like to ease with HRT?
Hi. New here. Will try to cut a long story short. Had Mirena coil fitted over 5 years ago as periods were horrific. Heavy, painful. [mine were excrucitaing and clotty for years!}
After the initial 9 months of off on bleeding and IBS flares it settled and things seemed good for about 18mths.
Then in 2022 I noticed I had low mood, anxiety (I’ve struggled with anxiety forever but it increased) aches, hair falling out. I was 45 then. So got Oestrogel from the doc. Used 1 pump. 2 pumps increased my anxiety.
End of mid 2023 I noticed my mood was really taking a tumble. I was (for the first time in my life) having suicidal thoughts. So I went to a menopause specialist. She said I was oestrogen dominant and reduced my Oestrogel and gave me compounded progesterone cream.
I had awful side effects the first few weeks but they passed. Mood didn’t improve much. So she doubled it. I couldn’t tolerate the side effects so stopped.
Anyway I think went au natural but 2024 was horrific. Anxiety through the roof. I had periods all the way through with Mirena but suddenly was spotting every other week. I started the Oestrogel again but nothing helped.
Then thought maybe it was my Mirena giving up as it was now 5 years. Anyway I came off Oestrogel again and things did settle a lot. Although I was still spotting and had terrible persistent thrush.
So in February this year I had Mirena removed - wondered if that had actually contributed to my low mood. I had the most God awful crash symptoms. I was bed ridden for a week and it’s taken months. It’s been 5 months now and it’s still not great.
My main issue is around ovulation. I get so sick in the run up to it - nausea, diarrhoea, panic, insomnia. It passes usually once I ovulate and my luteal phase is better although PMS is an issue.
. How is your diet overall? The National Association for Pre-menstrual Syndrome [NAPS] advised me to eat every 3 hours, 24/7 to ease those sudden energy drops. 10-14 days B4 a period I would have similar symptoms to those U describe, I knew every waste bin in every store that I shopped in regularly: in case! 10 mins B4 a bleed began I would have to 'dash' with 'the runs', even if a period wasn't due

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Doctor has given me Oestrogel and utrogestan. I did start the Oestrogel - just 1 pump. The utrogestan scares me though. So if I’m honest I’ve done one month of Oestrogel and haven’t built up the courage for utrogestan although I know I can’t go without.
A big part of me feels I need my system to settle after coming off Mirena and actually it’s my oestrogen spiking that’s causing me issues so now adding more is just making me worse.
Sorry for the ramble but I feel I’m at a crossroads. I think I’m so nervous of taking hormones that might mess me up even more but also nervous if I don’t I can’t get better.
If I’m honest I’d rather go without. But what if I get a whole lot worse?
. The Change is normal but can throw up some issues that we weren't expecting! It mayB that your own hormones are active enough that you don't require replacement right now. Hopefully some1 will be along with advice.
Urgh. Just needed yo type that out. I’m not sure anyone can help really.