Furyan, that's interesting...
The thing I keep coming back to, is that back when I was 21, I tried a combined pill. I was only on it a couple of weeks because it made me feel really weird - I remember at night I'd be sitting in the university library, trying to write an essay, and my heart would be beating fast and hard. I couldn't figure out why. It was also starting to affect my sleep.
I went back to my GP and switched to the POP with the same progestin in it as the COC I'd been on (levonorgestrel) and I was totally fine. Stayed on that for about 8 years.
Which is all to say, I had a similar (less extreme) response to estrogen - albeit synthetic estrogen - back at the start of my life.
After starting HRT, I was ok on the 25mcg patch for 2 weeks but had been told to increase to 50 patch at 3 weeks. About a week after that, the night time symptoms began: Heart beating so hard I could see my aortic pulse in my chest and hear it in my ear on the pillow. Beating at about 95bpm in my sleep, when my resting pulse is around 50. Inner tremors in my core so intense that I thought it was my partner scratching himself and causing the bed to move - until I looked up and saw he was fast asleep and then realised this was ME. Hypnic jerks where I startled awake just as I began to fall asleep. Very light sleep, and not much of that. Hands going numb in my sleep even when just resting on my chest. It was insane. Episodes of high blood pressue (180/90) despite being fit.
Of course, I stopped the HRT for 6 months. But nothing improved. I couldn't understand - if the HRT had caused this, why did stopping it not get rid of it!? Now I felt totally trapped, having previously thought the worst case scenario was I couldn't take HRT.
Anyway, thyroid was just one of the many things I investigated. And taking a low dose 15mcg of T3 only (also via the Thyroid Clinic at the time) was a trial treatment, to see if it helped. At first, the first week, I think it did help - and then it didn't. Tests showed my T4 was now below range due to my body responding to that little T3 dose. So I was put on 50mcg T4 as well. Eventually we did get my thyroid labs to look 'good' on T4 and T3. I still felt bad at night.
But, in all this, the HRT was never higher than 400pmol. Eventually I concluded the cause wasn't thyroid. I began to wean off the thyroid meds, just as the Newson Clinic told me to try increasing my HRT to get me to 800-1000pmol. So my HRT was going up as my thyroid was coming down. There were a few weeks where I felt good, just before this....
Then I felt really bad again. Tested thyroid 6 and 10 weeks after coming off, to find I never regained my previous function. My T3 was way below range (2.5) and my T4 was at the bottom of the range (12.1 in 12-22 range) but my TSH was normal at 2.25 and wasn't demanding more thyroid hormones.
At this, I had to go back onto thyroid hormones again. Since then I've been gradually increasing my dose and I'm needing a lot more T4 to get into range than before - currently on 100mcg and it's expected I will increase to 125 in a few weeks. Also on 30mcg T3.
BUT - NOW I'm on around 850pmol E with this higher HRT dose AND I'm finally getting there with the thyroid dosing (noticed a huge improvement in night time symptoms and sleep when I increased the T4 to 100mcg) and IT'S FINALLY LOOKING POSITIVE!!!!
Which is all to say: It appears that I need BOTH pretty high E levels around 850, PLUS thyroid meds to get me to good T4 and T3 levels (forget about TSH, mine isn't working properly anyway) for these symptoms to be addressed. I still have NO IDEA WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON(!!). But my working hypothesis is that starting estrogen screwed up my thyroid somehow by putting a lot of demand for thyroid hormones which I just didn't have.
I have been referred to endocrinology. In my mind - to rule out anything more widespread going on with my pituitary. (Ie to test growth hormone and see if I am also deficient in that, and to get an MRI of my pituitary perhaps.) I don't trust the endo with the thyroid med side of things and will probably stay private with all that.
That's my story so far anyway. This has all gone on for about 3.5 years now. I finally have some hope. It has been hard to keep going sometimes, when my sleep is so bad, but luckily I am self-employed and work from home and can set my own hours. The downside is that I don't get sick pay and if I don't work, I don't get money....