Thanks for replying.
I am very confused about HRT, the doctors don't really give you much info other than the risks but what I really want to know are things like ... does it take over my own natural hormone (im)balance or does it compliment it? And when do I know to stop the HRT? And is it going to make my uterus more hospitable for sperm to get comfy!
As you have alluded to, bombsh3ll, there are suppressive options and less suppressive, I had no idea!
I think I will learn more on this forum than any doctor can tell me.
I am susceptible to depression and this seems to have knocked me sideways. It seems to have happened so quickly which makes me question if I should give it a few months to settle or if actually this is not the correct type/dose for me.
I can't spend two weeks out of every month in this state, that just isn't going to work for me or my poor cat!

I appreciate your comments and support, I'll go back to the doctors and see if they can do something else for me. I have avoided the pill just because I tried several when I was much younger and ended up in this state everytime. But perhaps that is something that'd work better for me now.