Hi Patti,
Sorry to hear you are struggling with various symptoms on HRT. I can understand why you want to stop it. Although some of my symptoms were reduced when I started HRT over 3 years ago, it hasn't been the magic bullet I expected it to be. I just seem to continuosly lurch from one symptom to another despite having changed doses, regimes and HRT products in a controlled way over time. I am now working my way to come off it (again) just to see what my own body is doing without additional hormones, as I have no idea if these varying symptoms are exacerbated by the extra oestrogen and progesterone and causing an imbalance. It's great that it seems to be a successful treatment for so many ladies, sadly I am not one of them.
Before you completely give up on it, have you tried anything different eg altering your doseage and/or trying something different from the gel & utrogestan e.g. patches? It might be worth giving something else a try to see how you get on as it just might be a doseage/absorption issue? X