I'm so incensed by this Panorama show, I don't know where to begin.
There is an absolute witch-hunt against Louise Newson going on behind the scenes - which extends to kicking her out the BMS. There are people in this thread saying 'but she has been kicked out the BMS' [shock horror] as if this is now proof that she is a dodgy doctor - rather than realising that the BMS would have us all dissing HRT and has been dragged screaming away from the WHI study, never really refuting it with any explicit statement to equal the intensity of their initial support of it. The BMS is ultra-conservative and relies on research which is outdated and incomplete (there will never be funded research of the sort which is needed because this is women's health and we are not talking about new drugs here, but cheap hormones). That doesn't make it any more 'right'.
Secondly, I can 100% guarantee that for every woman interviewed in that Panorama programme with some scary story about high doses of estrogen, they could, IF THEY'D WANTED, easily have found as many women - actually even more - who would have told stories of NEEDING those doses and not having symptom resolution on lower doses, besides having no side effects from this dosage. (Newson herself is just one such case. Me being another. Hundreds of thousands of other women all over social media who are her patients, being more.) The fact that they only interviewed women touting this one angle was incredibly one-sided and unfair and I really hope Newson has got her lawyers on this for sure. That is not neutral and unbiassed journalism, it's professional assassination and a take-down and slander - to present such a one-sided view.
Thirdly, there was no mention in the programme of the distinction between the dosage applied to your skin and the serum estradiol levels. How some of us (with dry skin, with thick skin - who knows?!) just don't absorb very well transdermally. My levels on 6 pumps (and also on 12 pumps of gel - it was the same) was 330pmol. That is not astronomically high. 12 pumps of gel is 3x the max licensed dose. Read that again:
I took 3x the max licensed dose and my serum estradiol was the same as many women on 2-4 pumps of gel. Yet this programme was all about the DOSAGE and not at all about the amount absorbed, which wasn't mentioned even once.
Doctors in that episode - like Dr Chatterjee - are actually really ANTI HRT. Until recently they were dissing it and promoting all kinds of other crap supplements to take instead. She is biassed against it as she herself had BC and couldn't take it. And THAT'S who they chose to interview?

With no one to present the other perspective?? This is just the establishment (ie the BMS) ganging up on Dr Newson.
My own experience of lying in bed awake through the night, shaking so much the bed seemed to be moving under me, with my heart going at 95bpm (normal rate in my sleep is 40bpm), and hypnic jerks constantly - all of which has got hugely better since I got my estrogen up by taking now almost 4x the licensed dose - with zero signs of high estrogen, no unscheduled bleeding, no sore boobs, nothing - is that I would probably have killed myself by now if I hadn't had access to higher doses of estrogen via Dr Newson's clinic.
So.... I am really f553cking angry.