Hi, everyone. I'm back. I've just had a disappointing encounter with a specialist.
SOME BACKGROUNDPreviously, I wrote this explanation of my symptoms:
https://www.menopausematters.co.uk/forum/index.php/topic,64256.msg889442.html#msg889442tl;dr: I was on combined BCP (Yasmin) for decades, stopped three years ago at age 51, and got very puffy eyes overnight as a result of stopping. All other causes have been ruled out. I am definitely sure this is a hormonal problem.
The puffiness is enough to ruin my appearance, and I'm very upset about that. Because I'm a performer it has also ruined my ability to work.
Here is a very important point: After six months off Yasmin, as a test, my GP gave me one (1) more pack of Yasmin.
Within five days all my symptoms disappeared, INCLUDING MY EYE PUFFINESS. I could literally see the skin of my eyelids puckering and tenting as it shrank back into my eye sockets. After I finished that one (1) pack of Yasmin, my eyes got puffy again.
Therefore,
I know that an effective treatment exists. The problem is that that treatment isn't sustainable into post-menopause.
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FIRST ATTEMPT: ELLESTE DUET CONTIAfter one year, I qualified as post-menopausal. I consulted my GP, and was put on Elleste Duet Conti. I posted about that here:
https://www.menopausematters.co.uk/forum/index.php/topic,64943.msg896893.html#msg896893tl;dr Elleste Duet Conti was no help whatsoever.
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NEXT ATTEMPT: OESTROGEL + CYCLICAL UTROGESTANAfter three months, I switched to two pumps of Oestrogel per day, plus 200mg Utrogestan for 12 out of 28 days.
This is FABULOUS, and has improved my life in a range of ways.
It also improved my eye puffiness by about 50%, which was a dramatic improvement.
Much as I had when I briefly went back on Yasmin, I could literally see the skin of my eyelids puckering and tenting as it shrank back into my eye sockets. Therefore, I know that oestrogel + cyclical utrogestan is a partially effective treatment.Unfortunately, 50% improvement is not enough, but I hoped it would continue to improve over time. It didn't. A year later, my eyes are still puffy enough to ruin my appearance. So this brings me to where I am now.
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MY CURRENT PROBLEM: CAN I IMPROVE ON MY CURRENT TREATMENT?I paid through the nose to see a specialist.
They told me two things:
1. To increase the oestrogel to three pumps.
2. That the utrogestan regime is unsafe for someone of my post-menopausal status, so I must change to 100mg every single day.
Since changing to the new regime, my eye puffiness has got worse. I'll have to wait and see if it improves with time.
However, I've already spent three years on this, three years during which my eyelids have been stretched out by the puffiness at the exact same time as my collagen and elastin have dramatically decreased. The longer this goes on, the less I'll be able to recover from this stress on the elasticity of my skin, even if a complete cure for the puffiness is found.
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A PAST EXPERIENCE THAT IS AFFECTING HOW I SEE MY CURRENT SITUATIONI should add that the BCP was part of an acne treatment regime. I had acne from the ages of about 10-11 until now, although since menopause I only need topical treatments to control it.
Because GPs don't really know how to treat acne, and don't want to, they would prescribe teenaged me enormous doses of tetracycline, which had no effect whatsoever.
When I pointed out "hey, all these enormous doses of antibiotics are having no effect whatsoever," they would tell me to accept my acne as an inevitable fact of life.
I didn't want to accept my acne, I wanted to control it. After 13-14 years of obsessive effort, and running between the political raindrops of self-treatment where I could, and the politics of appealing to doctors where self-treatment wasn't enough - I did finally manage to get my acne under control.
All that time was time I could have spent differently, if only I'd had a sympathetic ear from a knowledgeable doctor.
Because of this experience, I'm reading the letter from the menopause specialist, and one particular paragraph strikes me as hauntingly familiar.
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To paraphrase:
1. She first says that it's likely my puffiness is a result of a hormonal imbalance after coming off BCP (agreed, all the evidence points that way, and that's why I came to her)
2. Then she says that collagen and elastin inevitably decline as part of the ageing process, and that is probably contributing to the puffiness.
I mean, yes, I know collagen and elastin decline. I know this is a problem that, overall, will not get better with age. No matter what I do to try to maintain my appearance, ageing is a process that only goes in one direction and it ain't backwards.
But here's the thing. I've already found a therapy that works. I repeat:
After six months off Yasmin, as a test, my GP gave me one (1) more pack of Yasmin. Within five days all my symptoms disappeared, INCLUDING MY EYE PUFFINESS. I could literally see the skin of my eyelids puckering and tenting as it shrank back into my eye sockets. If all this were solely due to the ageing process, it wouldn't appear and disappear in a matter of days when a specific treatment was withdrawn and then restarted.
In particular, by emphasizing the decline in "collagen and elastin" as a cause - is it really believable that my collagen and elastin just disappeared within five days of my stopping Yasmin, and then came roaring back within five days of restarting Yasmin?
I know that one effective treatment exists, therefore other effective treatments must also exist. Furthermore, I know that two pumps of oestrogel and 200mg of utrogestan for 12 out of 28 days is partially effective, because - to repeat what I wrote earlier:
It [oestrogel + utrogestan taken cyclically] also improved my eye puffiness by about 50%, which was a dramatic improvement. Much as I had when I briefly went back on Yasmin, I could literally see the skin of my eyelids puckering and tenting as it shrank back into my eye sockets. It's possible that the treatment I'm currently on is the best treatment I'm ever going to get post-menopause, in which case I have no choice but to accept the situation.
However, I don't want to give up until I've tried everything.
The way the specialist framed her response leaves me feeling fobbed off, rather than reassured that I'm on the path to trying everything.
So: have I tried everything? If not, what else could someone in my situation try?