Hi Losingtheplot
How did the assessment for therapy go? I'm afraid for my own case it is a six month waiting list, so I shall stay on the list, they will checking me in 3 months. I understand the wait, the assessment is needed to prioritise people's needs.
I just know in my own case the anxiety and symptoms from that is 100% most severe with my own cycle . So for 20 days or so I am okayish, I can cope and I don't feel a danger as such, but I dip so much in the lead up to my period. So, I am riding it out in the hope that the increased hrt will suppress my natural cycle and so even out the moods. I can up the dose to 125 in needed and have the option for anti anxiety drugs during the pms \pmdd build up.So I feel I have a back up, a safety net if need be.
I so hope your own assessment went ok, you are so honest in your posts and I am certain these can help.others who may be feeling the same. Mental health always had such a stigma, and so many still feel an unwarranted shame if they are suffering. But I believe that the Mind needs treating as much as the body's physical needs too.
I strongly believe it is never a weakness to seek help, but is in fact a strength, especially at a time when we can feel so low.
You are going through so much, but honestly, you are doing so well
Take care xx