I’m really struggling at the moment, I’ve been on hrt for about 2 years as went into menopause prematurely at 38. While the hrt has knocked hot flushes on the head and I can sleep better my mental health is rock bottom and I have no sex drive at all which though my husband says he understands is ruining my marriage. I hate it, I feel no joy ib my life and am suicidal but so far have stopped myself because of the kids. I plaster on a smile and am pretty certain other people woukd see me as quite a positive person but it is a daily struggle to even get out of bed.
The hrt clinic have said I’m on everything they can give me-oestrogel, utrogestan and testosterone gel 3times a week but nothing helps. I just feel like I am now counting down the days until I die.
I am following every piece of advice I can that is suppose to help but all it does is make me feel even more drained, eating a balanced diet, plenty of b vitamins and lean protein, oily fish etc etc, taking my recommended supplements running three times a week and daily exercise, I even started the daily cold showers to see if that would help. And I have been doing these things consistently so it’s not like I’ve done them a month or two and given up when they don’t show instant results.
Is this it? Is this what life now is until I die?