Hello all,
I am a single mum going through menopause with a 12 year old daughter who has PMS BADLY!
I am genuinely relieved to of found this forum, I really hope there is support here. I have been ill, diagnosed with chronic fatigue for the past five years.
I started my periods at the age 11, immediately with migraines, unfortunately I have suffered badly with my hormones. I had bad PMS when I was younger, during mid age, I lost several jobs due to the severity of my migraines. In my mid 20's I started to suffer with anxiety. When I had my daughter at 29, I suffered with severe post-natal depression for three years. I almost ended up in a mother and baby unit. I can never be grateful enough for what I call my rugby team of women, which consisted of a CPN and a variety. of mental health workers from different departments. They genuinely saved me!
For the past few years I have not been feeling myself, I had the Mirena coil replaced two years ago, so I had no idea if my periods were still going. I did have to wait three weeks from after having the old Mirena coil removed to having the new one inserted. During that time, my mind raced like crazy, anxiety through the roof and major insomnia. I have suffered with insomnia pretty much for the past ten years on and of, it came in bouts. I used to be prescribed zolpidem, I can no longer take. Last time I took them, I suffered with bad depression.
As mentioned I have the Mirena coil, I have also been prescribed the Oestrogen Gel, I use two pumps a day. I have been using for two weeks and cannot wait for it to help alleviate more symptoms.
I had a very bad chronic fatigue flare up in June, I over exerted myself, I slept nonstop for three weeks. Since then I started having tremors, extreme anxiety, hives, hot flushes etc.
I have felt like a hot water bottle for years, admittedly even using my friends American style freezer to cool myself down when visited her! We joked about it, but I never understood why I have been like this for so long.
My sleep is now very broken, really bad brain fog (even simple house chores are extremely overwhelming). I drink 8 litres of fluid daily, I am always thirsty. I have done a home test for diabetes just in case. I know it runs in my mothers side of the family, negative.
at the moment I seem to be awake at night, I seem to of got to a point my sleep pattern is a true mess. I find I have to sleep around 8pm for an hour or I get very grumpy, I am then awake until roughly 4-6am. I then wake between 12-2pm. It takes me practically all day to wake up, my whole body is so heavy and feels like its still sleeping.
Being a mother, this has me guilt ridden, yet my daughter is suffering with bad PMS, yes she is on the combined pill to help calm this down but jeez she suffers badly. She is very advanced for her age, responsible does amazing at school. I have found me feeling like we are starting to clash a little, she's always wanting more independence. Baring in mind she is only 12, I do not allow all these apps on her phone. I personally believe the internet is a dangerous place for young teens. She say I am over protective for placing an app where we can see where each other are at all times. I have this in place, so I can allow her to be out with her friends and enjoy her independence, I feel I am being fair. Many mothers seem to allow their children out all day, not knowing who they're children are with, where they are or what they are doing. Yes parenting is up to each parent, I just cannot justify doing this myself.
am I being over protective?
as for sleep, are there any tips on how I can get my sleep pattern back to being at night? I have been trying my best, yet end up finding myself sleep deprived and unable to think straight at all. I tried kalms, valerian root and whatever else I could find to help years ago, none of them have worked.I have a nonstop thinking mind.
I mention about my PMS and post-natal depression after reading how these can make menopause worse in a book: Preparing for the Perimenopause and Menopause by Dr Louise Newson.
I had a bad aura migraine two days ago, have sumatriptan injections as I cannot hold any medication down due to vomiting.
I have lost interest in life, I have no idea what I like, or enjoy apart from reading. I have loved reading since I was a child, yet I do struggle with it now.
How do I get my bounce back in life? I feel like everything is unravelling around me and I can't stop it, I can barely keep my household together, cleaning is a real struggle.
I cannot bare to look at myself in the mirror, I feel much older than I am. im too exhausted to even do anything about how I look, yet I know deep down I care about my appearance. ive gained weight, my hair is falling to pieces or I find random hairs growing!
my skin has aged badly, droopy eyelids and brows, admit its affecting my site slightly ( I don't drive so not to worry), this is something I will come back to resolving once my mood and sleep improve.
I get irritable and irrational, I don't feel like I am being like that at the time, but I do realise it after, its so hard to control! I don't like being around people, I seem to be very jumpy at noise, too much irritates me. its only been two weeks of using hrt gel, its helped reduce my tremors and sweating profusely.
any tips or advice on anything that would help would be greatly appreciated.
I feel so lost and very unsure if I will find my way out of this overwhelming fuzziness. I don't have any family apart from my daughter, so no one can help. yes my daughter is amazing with helping doing some chores for pocket money.
Hope to make some new friends on here, thank you all for reading xxx