Postmeno3, That's very good.
loonarider, I feel for you and I am in exactly the same situation. My booster is booked for next Monday and I can honestly say I am scared. I suffer panic disorder and anxiety too and lately my health anxiety is out the window. The past three days I have had really frightening headaches (well, odd and sudden stabbing shooting pains at the side of my head that stop me in my track). My husband just shrugs his shoulders and says he gets that all the time, but I immediately think brain haemorrage/tumour etc. I know I should sit calmly and think rational thoughts, but that's easier said than done. I had Pfizer vaccine with my first two. I had made up my mind I wouldn't take the AZ because of my fears with blood clots. I was relieved when I got the Pfizer, but I have had palpitations ever since. (I'm not trying to scare you, just being honest). The majority of people seem to have no effects after their jabs, but there are definately some who do. I didn't have headaches after either jabs though. Still waiting after 7 months for 24 Hr heart monitor results, but ECG's and blood tests were all fine. The palpitations are most likely to be a coincidence and caused by something else, gastric issues which I am having, or lack of magnesium or hormones, or any of those combined with my anxiety, and yet I know what it's like to focus on only the worst case scenario. My friend had her booster last week, said she felt horrendous after, but I just walked 6 miles with her yesterday and she is back to normal. I am now convinced that I will be ill all over Christmas, so again, like you, I wonder whether I should reschedule. I know I will also convince myself that the symptoms I experience after the jab will be life threatening whether they are or not. It's just how someone with an overactive, nervous mind works, and I really dont think anything can change that. I'm sure your doctor, knowing of your previous experience with the first two jabs would advise you against the booster if he thought there would be a problem so that should be some comfort. I keep thinking what life will be like if I dont take the booster, unable to get a vaccine passport, (if that's the way we go), shut away from society, etc., and I try to tell myself what would be worse, a life with so many restrictions, or a life with some palpitations that may be fixable. I tell myself quite often to 'get a grip' but rarely listen to myself!! What does help sometimes is me knowing the number who are vaccinated, seeing all the people in queues at vaccination centres, and thinking how, out of all these people, (who seem so calm and eager to be vaccinated) I was the one who was really worried about what side effects I might get, and right on cue , I was the one who got the side effects. It does seem quite unlikely really. I'm at doctors on Friday to get results of heart test. If all is well I shall take the booster on Monday, but even then, no amount of reassurance will make me worry less about any side effects I may get. I feel for you, I really do, it's all just such an awful situation. I've had my symptoms for seven or eight months now and I'm still alive, so are you. If we dont take the vaccine we may not be alive seven or eight months from now. We should, most probably, just go for it and then whatever symptoms we may get, deal with them after. Wishing you well