Again, confusingly, I do sometimes feel back to normal on HRT but after a while another mood change occurs and I begin to feel anxious and tearful again. As an example I woke early this morning full of the jitters etc but about an hour later I experienced a lovely feeling of calm that continued for about an hour. Just as I cannot figure out why I often feel horrible, I can't identify what it is that makes me feel good. Hence my interest in a form of Bi Polar diagnosis
I hear you Kathleen, and I totally empathise, I am feeling much the same way, whilst HRT got rid of some of the more troubling physical issues, and the extreme mood swings, I still get very annoying and upsetting swings.
I have a period where I wake up with the jitters every morning, I feel very down and can easily cry. At these junctures everything in my world feels wrong and hard. Then I have periods where I can feel “me”, happy, buoyant and positive and love everything in my world.
As perinowpost says, I also get utrogestan withdrawal, but have found I can manage this better by using it vaginally rather than orally. I’m as clueless as you, I’ve discussed with my specialist, she wonders if it’s the testosterone we’ve added, but I’m not sure. Now I’m tracking these moods against the days of my cycle to see if I have a pattern.
Bi Polar doesn’t have as many swings. A typical bi polar sufferer will swing between depression and mania a few times a year, which is why my doctor and I agreed that it was unlikely. So they just diagnosed me with anxiety and depression instead, even though there were big swathes of time that I felt fine?