Whatsup, i am so sorry, i have just caught up, i can empathise, re the shock, i had to have my lovely girl put to sleep last year,and still not got over it,
Just took her to the vets for more tablets, [she had dementia] and he said i had to let her go, she had also gone blind literally overnight,
#I was so shocked i said no, she can't have, and brought her home for one last night,which i now feel very guilty about, she slept on my bed with me, but must have got down,as that night she had bumped into everything and caught her crying at 4 am, trying to get behind a radiator, so had to take her back straight away,
I have her ashes and often talk to her, even though that sounds silly,
Just give her lots of cuddles and make the best of her time left with you,