The 2 comments from acquaintances are in no way whatsoever helpful. You dont need it when feeling UGH! I feel apathetic today and my annoying sister in law posts that hrt was a lifesaver for her, which is a trigger word that makes me visualise punching people in the face! Along with "menopause is so empowering"... oh, shut up! On the bad days youll feel like it will never end , but , it will because youll have oh so crappy overwhelmimg days and tolerable ones. And youll get to a point of thinking right i cant change but i can adapt. Accept you feel low, strategise, imagine if you were going to do what you have to , but with the flu. Youd plod through, cut yourself slack, do the required minimum and ignore idiots plus self preserve, ie , disappear to your home or room, with a hot water bottle, a small but satisfying amount of chocolate (too much adds to the crappiness by feeling guilty) , maybe a favourite book or a girly movie (whatever your chill out with comfort stuff is, me its an 80s brat pack, total escapism from life right now) If possible admit to someone trustworthy and supportive at work that youre struggling, believe menopause is a recognised problem in uk workplaces for support etc. Halving a worry is a start. Obviously youve sought medical help? If not, why not? And every person here knows every bit youre going through.
Tonight i was so apathetic i came home from work , had toast and handed my husband leftover pizza. I used to cook every night but tonight is 2 nights in a month... im on the progesterone 15 days , so this is the slide to a period where i get 3 days of extreme tiredness, and often deep depression. Ive had hrt changed 3 times in a month thanks to lack of availability but the one im on now as it happens has taken the edge off the depression, esp anger, so its a start. Other things will straighten out . Its no easy path for many but theres always room for improvement..... i wish you the best because that depth of despair you described is somewhere i know well.