Hi everyone! ..i was on the forum a few years back but havnt been around for a long while .
I was told i was peri at aged 42 ..it was a bit of a shock at the time tbh and lots of ranty posts on here ensued !I was hoping to enjoy my 4os but alas !
So i am now 47 and periods gradually got further apart as the years have ticked by(8 months being the longest)
However last year in the spring i had a normal cycle for 3 months.swinging back to 8 .I am in my 8th month now without a period ..frankly this is HORRIBLE.
I kind of feel like i am dying? ..or simply fading away ..like i am a shadow of myself or something ...i have some other health issues that are giving me grief also ,so it really is quite friggin miserable.
I have felt like im going to come on for about 5 months now .
Im interested to know from women here tho ,is it normal to NOT have hot flushes ?
I really dont have them at all ..or if i do they are very mild feelings of warmth .
I also am having sleep issues ,but not of the insomnia kind like most women seem to have with meno ? ..i have the total opposite issue..having been an insomniac my whole life i find i am now sleeping between 7 and 9 hours a night solidly like a log & if i allowed myself i could probably sleep in the day as well !..the fatigue and weakness not to mention a whole host of other HORRIBLE stuff is really taking over my life (i dont have one anymore)..i just dont know whats going on ..:-/ i was always quite active despite my conditions yet now even a walk to the shop feels like hell on earth to me.
I have basically no life left anymore ,cant think straight..have strange absences..and forget how to do things i fime well know how to do ! ..i have very little interest in life or humanity anymore yet am obsessed with the constant thought of dying and feeling like im dying and that my life is essentially over ....is this really it ?i mean how the hell we sposed to cope with this girls?!!
I cant be bothered to go back to the doc just to be told theres "nothing physically wrong" (YAWN) and its all down to my other health stuff
My last tests only seemed to show i was at the beggining of peri ..i mean huh i thought was 6 years ago
??
Anyway my sincere condolences to all of you here ..!
Is this bizzare or what ...