My husband is supportive but thinks I overthink things and worry too much ( he is right!)
Worst part of last few years was last year, when he had to ‘apply' to continue living in the country he has lived in for 30 years, more than half his life. After a few weeks anxious wait, he was given his settled status. We live in sleepy Norfolk and had always been accepted as part of the community, the last year he has been told to ‘go home' more than once. Our retirement plans of 30 years have been shelved, life is pretty sad at the moment.
Childcare business had been thriving, got our third outstanding in 10 years last year but numbers have dropped, due to a lower birth rate and we are having to let our apprentice go after completing in March. We have already had to lose two other members of staff, leaving just me and my husband to run everything and I mean everything. Childcare, cleaning, cooking, admin, finances ...........! At almost 58, It is taking it's toll.
Daughter getting married in Crete in the summer, worried paperwork maybe more difficult after January has gone but fingers are crossed for that, just another stress.
I think I am focussing on health anxieties as I have no control over the rest. Want to retire but cannot afford to and won't get my pension for another 9 years, 12 if the proposals go ahead to increase to 70. Want to feel well again, I have always been fit and active, now I just cannot be bothered!
Fear? Fear of not being here for my daughters, that is my fear.