Hi ladies
Oh my goodness, what would I do without you all, you are all really amazing. I'm trying to think that it could be any one of this lesser things.
Yesterday I got an appointment from the hospital to see a consultant in the gastrointestinal dept next Monday. I was really happy to get that date. Also, I'm glad that they are not just sending me for a scan, but will get the chance to talk to the specialist, rather than just get scanned and go home.
Last night I was at a NYE dinner and dance , I didn't really want to go, but I did, and I felt normal for a few hours. I did eat, drink and dance, and actually enjoyed it. I've had some pain this morning, and very loose bowels (not yellow though this time). Freaked out a little thinking I was getting bowel urgency in the middle of the night, but actually it was 7.15 am, so sort of my normal time.
In a way I feel like it was worth it for my mental health , if that makes sense. I figured if it is something serious, I need to grab a few happy moments when I can.
Lyncola, I am very sorry if I have triggered you, and I hope your ribs get better soon. How are you feeling today?
Anyway, I do feel guilty for last night, trying not to feel like that. But I am focusing on next Monday, I'm so scared, but glad of it too.
Thank you all so very very much everyone , I am so humbled by the support I am getting. Happy and peaceful new year to you all.. ♥️
Loads of love
Jeepers