Thanks for all the replies. My gp won't prescribe testosterone, I think I read on here about it and asked her but she never offers it. I will ask again given the oopherectomy. She has prescribed conti patches so will give it a go as this anxiety level is unbearable. It's weird I wake up in a panic, sweaty, gut churning terror, I am worrying constantly about my family and bad things happening, although we have had a run of ill health in the family which has felt like a curse so I expect it's a combo of how I feel and what's already happened.
I've had a bone scan and have osteopaenia but I really have to chase to get it and feel rather demanding, I usually have to remind them I had an early menopause and it's recommended and will save me crumbling on them later on!
I am so shocked at how intense people's mental health is affected by menopause and I wonder how we can help ourselves more collectively. This forum is a godsend but I feel I need to see people. My friends are all in the ball park of menopause with varying experiences, some breezing it most not. All have said it just feels difficult to talk about and a lot of what you feel is so confusing, no one ever said it affected your head so extremely.
Anyway will report back on conti experience, I'm quite scared as I know it will take a while to settle on it and I'm really not very tolerant of side effects. Will keep researching, am going to get to the bottom of this somehow!