Just had the worst 2 weeks of my life. If last year wasn't bad enough trying to find a replacement HRT to Prempak C which I'd been on 16 years and trouble free, I discovered a lump in my left breast 2 weeks ago.
I went straight to GP, who referred me under 2 week rule to breast clinic and I had mammogram, biopsy and this week I was told I had a 2.5cm cancerous ER positive lump! Right breast ok and no lymph node involvement! I'm due for surgery next Wednesday for lumpectomy! I am absolutely DEVASTATED!
I rang my menopause specialist doctor to update her and she's told me to stop HRT straight away. I can't just go 'cold turkey', as did that last year (stupidly) as I got sick of GP messing me about with different HRTs and not really knowing what she was doing! I've started to wean off this week and will continue to do so post surgery. I specifically asked my menopause doctor back in Oct what the risk of breast cancer was, she said it was low because I would be on a low dose oestrogen

I need guidance on how to wean having been a long term HRT user, thanks to having ovaries removed when I was 31 years old. I am now 48. I need guidance on what alternatives there are to oestrogen to keep me sane!
I've been on the following preparation for 6 months, which was working and I felt so much better - 1mg Sandrena gel daily, oral Utrogestan at night daily, and every other day a half pump of Tostran gel.
My symptoms last year, because I went cold turkey, were extreme to say the least. The most troubling were light headedness, BPPV, extreme fatigue and anxiety. These did improve quickly on the new HRT regime but BPPV needed ENT visit to fix! I don't want BPPV back let alone anything else! I can't and won't go back to this dark place again!
I think my menopause doctor was shocked when I told her, but to be honest she should be helping me further and coming up with a weaning plan/alternative to HRT. I'll probably ring her again after the bank holiday weekend. She just said I must stop immediately.
I've resigned myself to the fact that I will have to come off HRT. I've never ever had one lump, bump or scare in 16 years. Obviously the daily dose of oestrogen gel I was using was too much but that's what I was told to do! Its triggered a nasty growth in my breast.
What will happen to my womb aswell if I stop using HRT? Will it just shrink and wither?
Can I still use a 'dab' of Tostran testosterone gel every other day without the other 2 hormones - oestrogen and progesterone? Tostran has certainly given me my spark back and a bit more energy!
I will be having a 3 week course of radiotherapy 5 weeks after surgery and will be started on Tamoxifen post surgery which of course is an oestrogen blocker, but what I don't understand why I would need an oestrogen blocker when my body no longer produces oestrogen naturally due to having ovaries removed 16 years ago. I'm stopping HRT anyway. Does Tamoxifen block all hormones or just oestrogen? I've already read up about the side effects of Tamoxifen

What alternatives are there to oestrogen?
I still need a quality of life.
Sorry to ramble but I am absolutely scared to death and freaking out. Life is certainly giving me a kicking. I was feeling so much better. DEVASTATED. Can't quite believe this is happening to me..bit of denial going on although it's sinking in slowly.