About 2 years ago I had a mammogram & ultrasound due to my left breast getting bigger and my nipple flattening out compared to the right one. Was told all fine, must be hormones etc.
3 months later, not convinced at all so paid for private appt with top doc (did my sister in laws breast surgery) and he wasn't particularly worried but did an ultrasound and it was all fine.
Last May was referred for lump under right arm which turned out to be fine but they found calcification in left breast. Lots of mammograms & 2 biopsies followed and DCIS was diagnosed followed by surgery to remove the area. Although initially was told I'd need radiotherapy, I didn't end up having it as the area removed in surgery was clear which means the DCIS was removed at biopsy stage.
Fast forward to 2 weeks ago, when I was referred for a very small lump right at the very bottom of left breast. Not particularly worried due to all the tests last year. Had ultrasound today, doctor was very worried about an area that looks different. So had mammogram, nothing showed up. So she did needle biopsy there & then, then sent me for more detailed mammograms. Results in a week but was told it's 'very likely' it's cancer.
Worried sick for obvious reasons but also because throughout all the tests last year, I never had an ultrasound so even if this area was there then, it wouldn't have been picked up. And because it's so far down (as far down on the boob as you can go), it wouldn't have been checked before, so it could have been there years.
My question, how do I get through the next week knowing I'll probably be told the worst news. I have diazepam which I will take to hopefully get a bit of sleep but I can't eat (had a bit of a sandwich earlier but have just been sick), can't cry though I feel like I desperately need to. Just don't know what to do with myself. Sorry for the long ramble xxx