Hello
Some of you might remember I was here a couple of months or so ago.
I had a huge, very full on chunk of work for 5 weeks over December. It was super exhausting and stressful, but I made it.
The start of this job coincided with me starting to take Loestrin 20. It worked really well controlling the previously increasingly out of control, very protracted, super heavy bleeding (big clots and flooding) I had been having. My cycle had just started to become much shorter as well: 8 day very heavy period, one week period free, another 8 days very heavy period.
The stress of it all leading up to that point, and the stress of trying to deal with my GP, meant I got ill pretty much right of the start of this job. I only had 4 days off in December on this job (including Christmas Day and the 1 January), and so didn't get a chance to get better. I've only just started to feel better now.
I had a bit of bleeding mid pill for a couple of days after I started taking the pill at the start of December, but nothing too stressful for me. When I had the pill free week, I had PMT type cramps for a day and a light 'period' for a couple of days. All good. My eating went back to normal after a the restricting, trying to deal with the stress of what had happened and to gain some sort of sense of control over something.
Second month on this pill currently. I had another mid pill bleed. This time accompanied by quite a bit of sensitivity in my breasts beforehand. The mid pill bleed has been very strange: longer, and maybe light, then medium with a coupe of tiny, tiny clots, then very, very light for a couple of days, then much heavier (flooding at night, accompanied by night sweats and had to clean my floor as well. I also have a little PMT type cramps).
I have one more pill to take before my pill free week. But I have a serious chunk of work to do for a few days coming up and I am absolutely terrified. When my periods were really, really bad in the run up to me starting the Loestrin 20 at the start of December, I couldn't go for more than 45 minutes or so without changing. And I'd be flooding too. I have to go away for this work coming up which means travel. And I have to stay away for a few days. Plus I have to look smart for the whole day. And be confident.
How do I cope with this? It's starting totally affect my mental heath, really, really badly again.
Funnily enough, my body feels OK - apart from the bleeding. But my mental health? Worse than I've ever felt in my life (and I've not had an easy life, by any means). How long? How long does this **** go on for? It's going to start impacting on my income if it carries on (I'm self employed, so no sick pay if I don't/can't work).
Please someone, make this all stop.