I am desperate - I have such severe anxiety and depression, brought about by sudden chemotherapy menopause, my life has completely fallen apart, lost my job, regularly think about suicide... So far no-one has come up with a solution - raising my estrogen level has helped up to a point with the depression, but the acute anxiety, which was triggered by utrogestan, now doggedly refuses to respond to anything. I also need testosterone but my body refuses to tolerate it - seems to make the depression worse. I fought to get a referral to my nearest NHS menopause clinic, 3 hours drive away, went fully armed with all the facts about what I'd tried already and what my blood levels are right now, and came away feeling that it was all total guesswork, the consultant even tried to make out that I didn't need testosterone because my ovaries would still be producing it. This is both theoretical nonsense and wrong in my case - he looked a bit sheepish when I showed him the level had come back as practically zero. And surprise surprise, after 3 months his guesswork has resulted in absolutely no improvement whatsoever.
The problem for me is that having menopause brought on suddenly by chemotherapy seems to be a pretty unusual situation, and no-one really seems to have a clue how to deal with it. I have savings I'm prepared to spend to get some semblance of a life back, but is there even a professional out there who'd be able to help if I could manage to make the journey? (I live in Devon so pretty much anywhere feels like a long way). I want to at least be able to have a preliminary conversation with a doctor before I make what would be a hugely stressful and expensive trip for me, and no-one seems to offer that facility. Can anyone help with suggestions?